LoL. Well, that was a rather aggravating situation... Want to talk about aggravating? I didn't even know I could do this!! I nearly strangled myself yesterday!! Not with my hands, but... just... well, here's teh story. I was at practice, and me and Katie simply could not get this hand-off right. We kept screwing it up, and oh... I was so tired, hot, frustrated and getting very pissy very fast. So... After I ran it at 3/4 speed then poured it on for the last 20 feet or so, we screwed it up almsot really badly. My temper just whirled up, and with a snarled, "Fucking A!" I whipped the baton at the ground, and stalked off across the field, back to my starting point. I already was having a ahrd time breathing, because ya know... I had been running my hardest, so I don't think that helped... But, I was so tense, I kept wheezing, then finally, it got so bad, it felt like someone was squeezing my windpipe, and literally, I couldn't take in a breath. I was scared, but still very angry. So, I landed down on my knees, somehow, and after a few seconds, it started going away. So, i jsut sat there, making myself relax. Then, I was called back to the other side ofthe field. So, I got up and started over there at a walk. It happened again!! So, in front of everyone, i made it to the group, and I was wheezing almsot as badly as before, but I got down on my knees, and made it go away. Everyone was asking me if I needed my inhaler(sp?), but it wasn't the asthma!! I have no idea what it was! Just... stress, i suppose. Geez... I never knew it could do that to you!

Anyway, after that, I went over to Ala's, with Christine, and we went to Panera. I had a Morning Glory bagel- WICKED GOOD!!!- with cream cheese and a lemonade. Then, after that, we crashed teh Senior banquet, and... painted Katie's windows... *grin* We luv you Katie!!!! And then we "caused some trouble in Pascoag"... Sound familiar Chris? hehhe... Well, the "trouble" was painting Juice's car... *michevous grin* And all those pretty colors... How purdiful!! heheh... WE hope you like it Juice!! And if not, I'll trade ya! because I wanted to drive my car around, painted!!! hehe And ya know we luv you too... isn't it funny how we only do tricks to people we like? Man... with friends like us, who needs enemies? LoL

okay, so yeah, I'm an idiot. I refuse to put up these frieking quiz results anymore! I'm a tiger, headstrong and passionate, Duh! LoL I'm an Otter, palyful and intelligent. Again, duh! I'm the stoner in the typical movie... no that's a different one, LoL! Not really! I'm the elemtn of flight... Yay. Are they trying to tell me something? I'm Storm from the X-Men. Headstrong and intelligent, but very fearful of criticism, with it being very hard to overcome my fear... *rolls eyes* No offense, but... Yeah. Knew that. Onward and upward. I'm a smirk- arrogant and abominably evil... Yup Yup! hehe I am Goddess of the Wind... I don't like to let anyone clsoe to me... No shyt Sherlock. BUt, then again... are they trying o tell me something? *grin* I am Morpheus from the Matrix. A true leader. Confident and in control.

Hah.. I love taking on-line quizzes, and with 2 hours to spare in a period in which I don't have en exam, I'm pretty bored. LoL But I bet that Juice and Corey are more bored... Ms. Villatico rambling on for two hours... Ah. I'd shoot myself... But maybe they're watching and movie and I wish I was in wiht them? Who knows? I could be having fun outside, but NOOO! I'm stuck inside on this rather glorious day of beauteous weather. I hate school. It just sucks.

Okay, so enough sadness in this damned thing! Time for happy stuff!! yay!!! We have a new coffee house in town, have for a while, but didn't learn about it until Richie was like... hey, you should go to the coffee house in town! I was like, Whoa! He was like, Whoa! and we were like, Whooooaaaaa.... Anyway. I'm going to see finding nemo sometime voer this weekend, as well as Matrix 2... Prolly not Nemo, this weekend, but... maybe next weekend. confusing enough for ya? Canwe say ADD? I love to topic-jump!

So, right. I jsut noticed this. When I'm not going out with someone, i call them by their nicknames, but when I am, I call them by their real names... How screwed up is that? Actually, i think it may be a sign of respect. nicknames are cool and everyhting, but... I think that if you respect someone, you should call them by their own name, not something that someone else came up with. It jsut seems right. So, I love ya all, and it's time for me to go to bed! yay!! 10 pm and I'm feeling great... May do my english, yet! hehe and... *blink* I have an exam tomorrow!!!! AHH!!! Did I study? God NO!

hehe. Oops?

I'm so sad.... The rain is washing away all the prettiness of my car... *pout* And I got to pick up TP in the rain... What a disgusting job. LoL I'm so sad...

Thanks GUYS!!! *grin* Now I have the prettiest car in Burrillville!!! hehe And all in time for my job interview tomorrow!! Yeah!! LoL Anyway... I don't think even Juice and Chris could get it any better. By the way... TK, poem-dealy?

I'm sick and sad and delusional and cruel...
The world is a bleak, depressing,
horizon of stark corners and cold shadows.
Watch for me now, watch for the Dark One...


On her harley she comes, all
black leather and silver chrome
Her black bike of Doom has come to fly
through the skies, and pick away
the colors of the world..


Forgive us all
Forgive the sinners
Leave us be
We're all beginners
At the great game
Life.


"Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up
These are the best days of ours lives...
The only thing that matters is following your heart
And eventually you'll finally get it right."

- The Ataris- Thanks Sherri... This is a really good song. Another CD for me to collect.

Oooh... So the track meet was cancelled for yesterday, and I am going riding tomorrow! yeah!! I'm so excited. I really didn't think I would be this way, considering as how most deals like this have gone in the past. But, I can be excited for what might happen today and tomorrow, and be thankful that it happened that way yesterday. All rhetorics that are bound to make one think, but also to inspire. *shrug* Jsut a few thoughts, LoL

So, I was cleaning my room in the real yesterday, not the figurative yesterday... *blink* Get it? And found a piece of paper, which was all crumpled up. So, seeing it in my handwriting, I started reading it from where I had first seen it, not bothering to turn it over. And there were statements, a list of them, on there. "I'm sorry in advance for all harsh words spoken and cruel gestures undergone." And I noticed a little thing at the bottom, which went a little soemthing like...

Forgive us all
Forgive the sinners
Leave us be
We're all beginners
At the great game
Life.

And i don't know if this means anything to any of you, but... *shrugs* It made me think a bit, which is why I guess you have the figurative questions at the top. Why play a game unless you're going to put your heart into it and try for the best that you can do, right? What's the point of playing if you're going to cheat or just... not try? The point of a game is to have fun, or win, depending on where your ideals lie. Well, this seemed kind of ironic, as when I looked at the paper, I had no idea what the hell it was. I read the whole back, savoring the intense flavor of mystery, before flipping it over, and not reading to whom it was to, I read the rest of it. And it was a huge metaphor, based on the rules (I don't like this word. It keeps people back. And beside, a ruler is rigid, whereas rules are not, so... we shalt now call them guidelines.) and ideals of a game.

Thinking in these terms, of games, mind you, I thought back, and realized... Well, Hell! I'd lived most of my life with hte fun in mind, but with some things, I was just too scared to have fun, to play for either ideal. I was constantly held back, and constantly kept under my own mind's thumb. So, I made a new guideline. Just for myself.

Play the Game.

So now, with that in mind, I am going to try a new outlook, and I'm going to play the game. Hell, maybe it'll be the first major game I ever win, huh? And even if I don't, at least I'll have fun doing it.

PS. The letter's addressee was important, but in the new rules of the Game, I suppose they're not. Therefore, only the guidelines count.