I jsut got back from the barn, where I worked, incredibly hard at, from 9 this morning to 1:30 this afternoon, got dressed, and then rode from 2-3:30ish. I finally got to leave at 3:45, and I am sooo tired at 5. Luckily for me, Kate and her sister and friends went out to a movie, giving me time to do my chem lab, which I definitely won't have time to do, later. Geeeezzzz... PS. I love Cynthia and Ghibson. Soooo cute! hehe I have another lesson on Monday at whatever time Cynthia shows up, and I have a meeting at 1:30 tomorrow to figure out who's working on the 3 weeks Jess leaves for wahtever.

Last ngiht was fun... Me and Kate watched Dodgeball, which lost my interest like... 40 seconds into it, but I was determined to watch it all out, because everyone else likes it, so I probably should at least watch it and know what they're talking about. I think I'd rather watch March of the Penguins 3 times in a row without popcorn next time. Oy.

Then we each had a shot of vodka in a huge cup of Crystal Light mixture, and... went for a walk around the block! haha We talk about such strange things... So like... OMG@!! Abby, they're SPIKY!!! haha I love you Kate!!

Then she left me up to my own devices, so I tried to watch the boring boys play Risk, quickly lost interest, grabbed lani Garver and passed out before I even opened it, on the couch. 2 hours later, I was woken up and spent the next hour (hour??) distracting the Boy from his goal of going home... heh I'm so glad he has better willpower than I, because we both would have been crying if he'd slept over... I'm going to sleep in a bit... I jsut want to get some work done first...

Work time... Then naptime, then... party time!!!

Okay okay, updates, I know!! I'm currently sitting in front of my computer soaking wet, draped only in a towel... Oooh la la!! Current enough for you? Oh. Too current? Fiiiiiineeee!! Welll.... Thing are better on the homefront. My brother is now successfully in rehab, and he's doing okay, says Mom and Dad, who saw him last night, at their first parents meeting. They both liked the meeting, thought it was a great idea, gave them some new ideas on how to handle the events of his coming home, as well as provide a bit of counseling, now that he's out of the house and they have all this time to think about what went wrong, etc. I hope it works... I hope it works so much, I'd do anything to see my brother get clean, for good. Anything.

I found this awesome nut on the sidewalk while I was running, so bent down and scooped it up. I need to look it up and see what it is. Hmm..

He's happier when he's clean. It's just... I know what he's going through. I do it all the time- addictions aren't just about drugs and alcohol. You can get addicted to Naruto, roleplaying, books, people, music, -anything-. I jsut happened to stay away from the really bad stuff, because I'm afraid of EVERYTHING!!! haha Anyway...


I know, I know, get to the interesting stuff, right Linds? I know!! So... Zoox is loving his new home. He ate 4 crickets the other day while we watched- such a nasty little frog. Oh! Not that stuff? Oh... -That- interesting stuff!!! Gotcha. haha OMG... I'm talking to myself through my blogger... Well, I can just see Linds or Carolyn or Laura yelling at me when I do shit like this... It's easy enough, they all say the same thing... ahha

As far as Matt goes, we're okay, as far as I know... *shrugs* This week was really hard, what with Seth and all the shit I had to come to terms with over school and work, etc. As well as the little time of the month that makes -everything- exponentially worse. Goddamned stupid... Nevermind. But yeah, we're doing okay. Went bowling last night with Kate, Matt, Matt's roomie Sarah and her bf, Mike, for Sarah's bithday! It was fun!! They're trippy. haha I like them! No, Mike, I did not get a 19 this time... I actually made it into the... high... 10's? Like... 80,90? Somewhere around there? Maybe 70's? Oh, I don't know. I bowled three strikes!! haha YAY!

Okay... That's enough. Time to get to Physics work, then Physics class, then work, then... PLAYTIME!!! YAYAYAYAYAY!!!!

I am procrastinating... Though it has been a very productive night, I must say. I figure it's okay for a break after writing all the painful letters and getting Latin done... And sending in my faulty Chem lab... LoL
Next will either be Webass or the Pre-Lab due today that I simply could not understand. Icky.

I'm sooo... icky. I jsut don't feel right. I'm disgusted with myself that I'm currently failing Latin and Physics, that I can't seem to get ahead of my work, and Chemistry makes me fail at life. Maybe I should stop procrastinating and get back to work, huh? Way to make your own problems, Abbs... Way to go.

I'm really upset in that listless, quietly unsmiling kind of way that I get whenever something's really bothering me and I jsut.. hate it. I know it's good for him to leave, no questions. I think it's more my mom's message that got me so down, and not so much my brother leaving, though that's got me in a hole, too.. I'm gonna miss the brat.

"Oh, I figured you'd want to know... They called today and your brother's going in tomorrow, but don't bother coming home for dinner, it's no big deal. Nana and Grampa will be over, but you shouldn't rush home or anything. I just thought you'd want to know. If you want to say goodbye, leave him a message or something... " - WTF? thanks for making me feel like I don't matter, Mom... Do you think I don't care? Do you think that I'm going to relinquish my brother for 6 months without saying goodbye face to face? Obviously you have no idea what's going on in my head. Just the fact that you ever thought it, nevermind left me a message stating it, makes me cry. WTF were you thinking? Oh, right... Grief that your son is leaving. Yeah. Thanks. I'm absolutely cold about it, no feelings at all. Right. Whatever.

Okay now that I'm back in a horrible mood without any latin at all to soothe me, I'm going back to work. A perfect mood for Chem and Physics.

I lied. Carolyn, fix me. NOW, dammit! *rolls over in anguish* It hurts. My stomach hurts, and it won't get better... Helpp!!!

God, I'm such an ass. And I need to fix it, quick. No fucking up, jsut fix the goddamned problem. What's the problem, you ask? Gooood question.

Linds, I miss you... Come back. Don't be mad anymore. *tear* I'm going to take a nap now. I did not get enough sleep last night. Stupid 4 am phone calls. Stupid drunken people. LoL I'm tired... And not making much ssense.

Mmm... On second thought, I've decided I like kisses. Give me mooooore! ")>