This is that Colorgenics test that Naomi and Allan and probably everyone else have on their blogs. It's all good! But anyway... It's reasonably true. For the most part. Hell, maybe what I don't beleive is true, is part of my hidden or unknown quadrants to my Johari window!!! BWU HAHAHAH!!

Anyway... Here goes!:

You have a vivid imagination and this is good. Great inventors, explorers all had inventive, imaginative minds. Your friends and acquaintances may consider you over-imaginative and given to fantasy or day-dreaming. So what? This is a part of your character and charm.

Being a likeable person you get on well with neighbors and friends. You don't need anything to 'Rock your boat'. You want to 'love' and to be loved'.

You are feeling under considerable pressure and you are being forced to make concessions. You are not particularly happy with this state of affairs but you feel that you have no alternative. If you were to force issues you would be left out or completely ignored by one and all.

You are presently experiencing excessive stress as a result of self-restraint. You act and think differently from the common herd and you want to be liked and admired for yourself and to associate with people who feel and act as you do. Because of this need to be self-reliant and to break away from mediocrity, you are finding this situation most uncomfortable and you are experiencing considerable anxiety - perhaps even more than you feel the capacity to cope with. You need to find a 'soul mate', someone whose standards are as high as your own - but where? Keep on searching... The situation is uncomfortable and you would like to break away from it, but you refuse to compromise with your opinions. You are unable to resolve the situation because you are continually postponing the making of necessary decisions. You are stubborn but this is no deterrent to a happy life, so why drop your standards. Think positively, everything will work out. It has worked out successfully for you in the past and it will again in the future.

The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions are really beyond your capabilities. This has resulted in experiencing considerable anxiety and stress. You are looking for confirmation from your nearest and dearest that you have the ability and strength to fulfill all of your needs and to be completely self-sufficient. When matters don't go right for you - you tend to become inhibited and blame others for your inadequacy. You feel that there must be a way out from all the trials and tribulations that you have been experiencing of late and you are right - there is a solution - so don't give in, keep searching.

Hmm... *crunch crunch* Granola is yummy!! Yum Yum YUM!!! Lucifer isn't looking so good. He seems so sad these days.. I wonder what's the problem. Meh... Maybe he's just bored? No wonder... there jsut isn't much to do around these parts. LoL

Anyway... I'm going out tonight!! YAY!!! Picture this. strapless horizontally striped shirt- black, white and this neat little purply-pink that you would never think I'd be caught dead in, with a pair of black pants and black boots. Hott.

Hair is going to be straightened, or maybe just gelled into place, and... *think* silver bracelet, ring, and possibly necklace.
Hah.

YAY!! Dad's bringing me out for food!! YAY!!! HAHAH!!! No crappy dorm food for me tonight!! Though, I msut admit, the Chinese place is certainly picking up some charm- Lots of veggies and white rice... Mmm... heh

Hmmm... I'm bored. LoL

*le sigh* I failed it. Horribly. I left half of them blank, and the other ones I did wrong. Geez... Way to study for a week straight and -still- fail the damned exam. Fuck. I really needed a good grade on it. Fuck fuck fuck. Now what the hell am I going to do?

I have another exam tomorrow, but whatever... That one is kind of easyish... Hopefully. LoL Half the people I forget about becuase I haven't heard of them in weeks!! But, I'll look over the texts and remember, because I have a really decent memory for stuff like that. LoL Too bad Chem kicks my ass so bad. *groan* This is not the way I wanted it to go...

Oh man... I jsut spent 10 minutes reading this story about... Horrible things.
Things I don't even want to discuss, they're so... horrible. OMG... I'm traumatized. trust me. I joke around, but -this- was truly traumatizing. OMG... I am sickened.

On a better note, becuase God, this day needs better notes, I think I have my smile back. I was monitoring myself the other day as I joked around with a few friends, and I could laugh. Laugh without forcing it. It felt... great! I was happy! I think I may keep my blogger as it is for a while, simply in memory of bad times, but also becuase I love that background. And Silent Screaming pertains to me. Scream? Never. Not when it counts, anyway.

I told you my new job was to make you smile, my goal was to make you laugh. You called me crazy. Don't ever doubt it; I am the Queen of Crazies. But... You will smile. *grin* I don't care if I have to be the stupidest person alive, or learn high-level vocabulary words, let them roll off my tongue with natural ease, I -will- make you laugh. Just because I remember when you did, when you did handstands and stuck out your tongue. I won't give up on you. *smile* I won't.

Please don't hurt me, though.

"I dream I'm falling down, on my face. I scrape my knees, I scrape my hands until they bleed. Because youre fast asleep, next to me... Next to me..."

I am so stressed. I should be studying right now, but I'm eating. So... it's the 15 minute break for me! I type between slurping my cereal. Yummy cereal. Oy... Between chem and comm and history and bio, I have got enough exams/quizzes/finals to last me until... Oh wait!! NEXT WEEK!!! YES!!!

I think Lucifer has finally decided that it's safe to come to the surface of his tank; he's not afraid when I put food in, anymore. He comes straight to the top and starts gobbling. Like a turkey... Gobble gobble gobble. Except like... a fish... hah

I am so going clubbing on Thursday... Screw this BS... I am done with everything this week, on Thursday, so come that evening, I am putting on my cute shirt I -still- haven't worn, and I'm going out with the girls for a fun night in Providencia. Woot!

*le sigh* BTW.. My hair is straight. *blink* Granted, my hair isn't usually like afro style, but I have these persistent little curls in tghe front that, no matter how much gel or straightener you apply,they refuse to leave. I woke up this morning, and they were GONE!!! Well, not the hair, jsut the curls! DUDE!!! My theory is that while some people's hair turns grey under stress, mine turns straight. hah hah

And I had a weird dream again last night... About Laura making fun of my deodorant and my mom telling me I had gained so much weight in college... Who's going running today? me. hah... I guess that was my subconscious kicking me in the ass. hehe

Lee, you are the shit.

He who smiles rather than rages is always the stronger.
- Japanese proverb

I so definitely stole that from you... HAH!

Wow... I had a really weird dream last night. And I remembered it and wrote it down, too! WOOT! I haven't had a dream I remembered in a long time. Anyway... it was weird. It had my brother nearly crashing a tractor, a HUGE talking toad that peed on me, the African soccer player in Carly's dorm, and an older guy with grey hair.

Weird.

Anyway... Boys. I swear to God, sometimes you love them to death, and other times you want to just... wake up and hope you never have to deal with one again. I yelled at Evan yesterday- felt bad doing it, but did it. He didn't show up for our group meeting again! Oy! And -then-... And then... Oh, I don't even know what happened last night. Who ever does? It seriously is the most... I don't even know.

Lucifer got a new fish tank, and he's dominated Kate's fish a couple times through the walls... Got that boy beat down, heh. Poor fishes... But really... Lucifer is awesome. I don't know if I've reglaed you with tales of how awesome he is, but... here we go again. This boy, since he got his new tank, is constantly flared up into his glorious color- white body, blue fins that fade to red at the ends... Sick-looking fish.

Okay... Time to do Comm, chem, eat breakfast, clean the dishes, etc.