"White Flag" by Dido


I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
I'll tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused but nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was then
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

Well... From the very first moment I heard this song, I loved it. I think it's pretty self-explanatory, and well... Yeah. Anyway, I think it's the way that she sings, that makes me love her songs so much. Look... I do love this song for more than one reason, but... no one get any ideas from it. *deep breath* This is my White Flag, I suppose, and the ship is sinking. *sad smile* I guess I'm hopeless, huh?

Jenn, there's a few very good reasons why you're not on the list. But first off, why would you want to be on that list? That's a list of people who I don't know and never will, beyond their shallow countenances that I wished I could get by, but can't or won't, depending on whose viewpoint you look at it from. I figure I know you better than them, so you aren't on that list. *shrugs* I wish I did know you better, but it's not destiend to happen, so it seems, or it would have, but I know you well enough to know that you're a friend of mine.

I'm tired, and more tired. Charter went well, had a ton of fun, still cannot remember guy's names worth shyt. LAl i know who wa swho for sure, were Kevin and Jeff. My appintment with Dr. Sanford was pretty different, but very good... I'm looking forward, acutally looking forwar to a Dr's. appointment! Imagine that!, on Monday... It's going to be a doozy. Anyway... I'm jsut ehre telling you I'm alive and I won't be home tomorrow... Horses till prolly 2. Luv ya, peace.

Oh man... So, good times with Ala and the GGT. I jsut don't think most people would appreciate our genius (or stupidity) on here, so... I'm leaving it off. Besides... only members of the GGT (Me and Ala) can possibly know and comrehend the awesomeness of our situation. Yipes! I get to go to 6 flags today! Whoo! I'm going with Linds, Dave laurent, and Ben Fortier. I can jsut see it now... LoL But no need to be glum, be HAPPY!!!!!!!! ")> ")> School starts in 2 weeks... Ugh. Urgh. Backto school so soon? Damn! LoL

Thanks Mike for the movei watching... It was fun, even if you didn't enjoy it. I love Hocus Pocus. It's an awesome movie, and in fact, it came up at my riding elsson last night and voted and awesome movie. Lmao. Bette Middler defintiely makes it, though... With her pointy teeth. *grin* Luv ya! Bye bye bye!

So, I was jsut thinking. There are so many people I don't want to forget, or have them forget me, when they go to college, or away to wherever they decide to start their life after Burrillville High School. Among these are a select few whom I love, such as Katie and Meagan, but msot are people who would have no problems forgetting me. And these are the people whom I will write about.

Richie- You notice you're first on my lsit because you are the first one I think of when I think of people who I will miss. You are even before Katie and Meagan, but i think that's simply ebcause i know i will miss them, therefore they aren't even on the list of people who I -might- miss. But anyway... About you. I'm going to miss you and hearing you play, and every time i go by the gazebo, looking for you and your guitar. Now, if Elise or joe or Chris should ever read this, I want to clarify one thing that I think some people misinterpreted: I don't like you like that. I like you because you play songs, I like you in the way that a girl likes the cute drummer of her favorite band. Me and you aren't even friends. But damn, man, I used to lvoe talking to you, there was always something to say or joke about, and I loved hearing you play, because you sang about funny stuff and real stuff, and sad stuff, and you never were anyone but yourself. Wow... This is a paragraph. I meant to say jsut a few sentences... Oops. Anyway... I won't forget crazy Bio class, nor those 2 nights at the gazebo... or however many there were. I saw you tonight, I swear! Driving some kind of SUV by Newport Creamery, LoL! Anyway, I'm gonna miss my fandom. I want a CD. And forget anything you might've heard/seen about Juice, straws, and picnic tables. *holds back a laugh*

Elise- Well, chica, I didn't know you at all. LoL I really think, from what I did know, you're awesome though, and I wish I could've been a bit more open when I was hanging with you guys, because I prolly would have had so much more fun.

And this is where I edit this tomororw, becuas emy dad's going to yell if I don't get off soon.

Continued: So, Elise, from what I did meet, and learn of you, you're pretty cool. Thanks for not letting me get killed in mosh pits... Forever appreciated! LoL Where were you when I needed you at Warped Tour? lmao!

Seth- Damn. You are a wealth of information that, if I felt I wouldn't get laughed out of your yard, I would love to know. Like... how engines really work, and how to make different things work and putting stuff together, and all the other stuff that guys seem to know and girls never will. (I'm taking Atuoshop... Step one in becoming more knowledgeable! yay!) If I wasn't quite so scared of you, I'd prolly have really liked to hang out with you! LoL Really, you're such a cool guy. Always having something intelligent to say and knowing how to get it across without sounding like a pompous ass. It's a great skill to have.

Rob- OMG... What can i say about you, except that you're one frieking CRAZY Kid! I will forever luv you and your silly ways. You're a serious kid, but you always manage to get people to see your way even if they're laughing their asses off about it. PS... I want the hat. Give it to ME!!!!! lmao

You guys aren't the only ones I will miss, but you are the msot I think I will miss the most. I remember you for the times we had, and because you made a huge impression on me. I wish I could have known you all better. But... I'm the goody goody and you guys are, first off, not, second off, unreachable. Thank you.

God... I am going to miss everyone that I might have been friends with under different circumstances, and only jsut got a hint of what it might've been like. To everyone I met while hanging with Juice and Chris, I wish I had known you so much more, so I could go up to you, give you all a great hug, hand you a letter telling you exactly why I loved you, and not feel like an idiot doing it. But, as I will feel like an idiot, probably the biggest one out there, I'm just writing in here, and if I see you on the street, will probably jsut wave and smile and keep walking. But, you never knows, maybe one of these days I will gain some guts and I will go up to you and hug you and wish you the best of luck, and hope like Hell that you don't punch me for being a psycho. *smirks* And if any of you read this, or hear about it, I'm going to punch myself because it's so fucking corny. *cracks up... but notice the half-sob*

Wicked Funny computer jokes! So, yeah... Arnie's tlakign to me this morning. She is so funny. I forgot all about ym nickname, Roseki... Wicked awesome. I need to remember to put that in my senior profile for the yearbook thingy.