Anyway... SB, you rewrite that straw saying on the picnic tables, I'll kill ya, darlin'! OMG... So muhc fun with you and Allz on the catwalk to the Westin. I'll ttyl!

Okay... back now. I figured out what I have to do. I gota start running again, and put myself on a diet. You see... if I really wanna do cross-country, which I couldn't really care about, I am gonna have to start conditioning again. Well, this is all well and good, but I myself know that I do not do running unless first off, someone else gives me a reason to- in other words, I need a partner in crime. Now, Carolyn said she would run with me, but only at night. Unfortunately, we ran one nght, then quit because she is too busy. Now... I need to do it everyone night, or every other night. Someone help!!!!

And as for this diet. No... I'm not trying to lose weight. Well... sorta. Not in the usual way. I jsut need to give myself a chance to use up some of the excess "energy" lying around... LoL! But really... I just need to tay the same as I am, and what with my lack of physical outlets like I had last summer, I need to stop eating like I used to. The ding-dongs (yuck!) and cheesecake (Yum!!!) need to go. Damn... I had a lot of fun eating those, and not worrying, Lol.

Anyway. I am in the process of making up with katie, and have come to the conclusion that though I still beleive I am right, I can allow her her views, and bury this in our past so that she can go to college and I to senior year, with our friendship still intact. Besides, nothing should come between two girls and their mischief-making adventures together... The look on Chris's face!!! Priceless!!! lmao Remember, Katie? "Hey Ab." Christine? What're you do-" "Uh....Hi Katie..." And the infamous ending, "I know you had something to do with this."

<---- BTW... how do you like my like my little thing over there? <----

okay. About the last post. It was meant to be serious, but as always, the tone in it is completely inappropriate, and so... here's the deal. The "date" was okay, it wasn't great, it wasn't bad, for me. I thinkJoe disliked it because he was either bored or scared most of the time. Either way, the purpose of the date was cancelled, as if I had brought up the tpoic, it would have been completely out of context, and had nothing to do with anything.

My mom asked me the day after how it had gone, and out of the blue, I told her we had "irreconcilable differences." Which is defined below in Abby-terms. So... all in all, it wasn't bad, it wasn't great, jsut... a "date". BTW... if it kills me, I will go over to Seth's all by myself at least once this summer... Even if I get laughed out of the yard, I can say I tried. *falls to her knees, penitential position* God, please help me... Don't make me get laughed at, Please.

Okay, Lol. So, for all of you that don't know this, I now know what "irreconcilable differences" are. They are differences in which two people simply cannot either 1) get along because they are so different in experiences or temperment, or 2) they jsut can't relate to one another because of diffences in experiences or temperment.

Well, I went out on a friendly "date" (Why does everyone call it a date? I was just gonna call it hanging out, but NO....) Anyway, I went hanging out with Juice on Thursday, and I decided we had irreconcilable differences. Like, I still adore the kid and would love to be his friend, but the question of how the hell did we go out for a month and see each other every day came up into my head more than once. Like... I know nothing about him, and he knows very little about me, and well, neither of us, though we get along well enough, neither of us share experiences, so there's not many to draw on for conversation... let's put it that way. So, besides that, we both get bored really easily, and I didn't know where I was going, and I hate car rides when I'm driving, and UGH! It was bad.

So, at about 10, Linds and Jeremy showed up, and it was more fun, mainly ebcause I culd joke around with Linds like we always do, and not have to worry about what to say, how to act, etc, because I am always jsut goofdy around ehr and Jeremy, whereas around joe, though he knows I'm a complete goofball, I didn't feel like I could relax. I beleve the purpose of this date might have had something to do with my uptightness, but since we never got aorund to it, I don't think it could've been that important in the first place. The most serious thing we said all night, beyond nothing, was when we talked about how we'd gone out for a month and we still didn't know anything about the other. I was sad... and I kind of think he regretted it as well, but hey. what's done is done.

Now, I know he's an awesome kid, and I really wish I had done more with that relationship, but I do suppose that those things, which most kids go throgh, are all part of the learning process. Ya know, I watch some of my friends, who have had many more boyfriends/girlffirneds than me, and I know that they choose, actively choose to go out and pursue someone until they go out. I, on hte other hand, sit on my laurels and jsut wait for whatever is perfect at the time, and then try my hand. But anyway... Those people, are so affectionate with their "significant other" (SO, from now on), and I am really not an affectionate person. I like to cuddle and I like to hug, but to really be passionate? I swear it's not in my nature. I'm a lukewarm person. I don't feel passion for much of anything. Life experience has taught me that, if you feel for something/someone, they always turn away, or leave, and you'll always be hurt in the end. So... I turned into a lukewarm person. And well... I owe Joe an apology for not allowing myself to get close to him, to not allow him to get close to me. I fend people off with my ditziness, my clumsiness, my stupidity, and yet, all the time, I really want to jion in, be friendly and be passionate... And there I go. Being stupid again. Well... enough of my sappiness. Time to get off here. I've said enough, and if none of you really read this, I probably would be less embarassed than if you did. Lol