The RI Flower and Garden Show today was Incredible!! hehe

I jsut blew up my stereo. Both components. All I can say is... At least it wasn't the speakers. Nope... I jsut took apart the DVD player... It's safe. Which means it's only the Receiver that took the hit... *Blink* If it is dead, guess who's not eating or buying or doing ANYTHING for the next month or so, because they have to afford to fix their receiver? ME!

My God, I'm so pissed. I'm so... disgusted with myself right now. I jsut want to cry. Then scream, then go to sleep. New plants just can't balance killed stereo. I'm sooo sad.

Okay, Matt... I'm so totally NOT pissed! You didn't lie at all. IHOP is fucking AMAZING!!! Yeah, misspelled that the first time... haha

Anyway, thanks bub... Maybe next I'll be making you a t-shirt. hahah I'll even put the good shit on it. haha

I'm walking out to the Flower and Garden show right now... I'm excited. I'm bringing some monies, so I can buy food and whatnot, because I'm STARVING!!! IHOP at 3 in the morning? Oh yes, please do. But... Need breakfast after that, too... hehe

Mmm... I have stale Peeps. I'm excited. They were open, but I decided that I didn't care and ate some of them anyway. I'm not dead, I don't feel weird, so I guess no one poisoned them... Or maybe I'm jsut to damned tough and PERSISTENT to die. haha Like a bad penny- takes more than POISON to get rid of me!! LoL

Anyyyyyyway... Love you lots, Can't wait til tonight, and... I need comfy shoes. FUCK!

This weekend is going to be amazing. I've decided it. haha I'm going to sleep until IHOP tonight, then it's off to the Flower and Garden Show tomorrow with my rents, then more sleep, maybe some homework, then off to Miss Kristy's for her incredible birthday party!!! Yeaaaaahhh! Then Sunday will be a homework day. Alright. So... tonight and tomorrow ill be incredible. After that, maybe not so awesome. But whatever, right? gotta choose your moments, haha

I have to tell you, this new show, "Black White" really creeps me out. Trading Spouses was bad enough, but changing races?? Maybe we should leave that for sci-fi and Michael Jackson. I don't know... I honestly don't understand what the point of all these new reality shows... And this one really really frieks me out. Can't you just... deal with who you are and the situation you've ended up in through that? I just don't know what's going on with stuff like that, anymore.

Okay... I got a huge discussion with Matt last night, and... Well, I'm not sure whether I want to thank him, or hurt him. Maybe a bit of both. Thank him for saying something that needed to be said, hurt him because a lot of this wouldn't have happened if a few key moments had perhaps gone differently- or at all, for that matter. But, whatever. I've got it now.

And I jsut want to make it very clear... I have obviously been acting crazy lately. Not my good, jump up and down and yell like an 8-year-old, crazy, but... bitchy, vicious, cruel, crazy. To a lot of people. And... I'm sorry. I've been so torn up inside, I haven't been able to see beyond my pain to how much I was hurting them. And I obviously needed a good slap to snap out of it. I'd like to think I'm snapped now.

I received a great lecture on how No means No... Which might have been appropriate a month and a half ago, but has no bearing on anything right now.

My conclusion? I understand how people get thrown in jail for crimes they didn't commit, all because circumstantial evidence added up. Mmm.. It's a great thing. I'm beginning to appreciate lawyers more... Or at least people who ask you straight up before telling everyone some misconstrued fucking story.

Angry? A little. I'm being pariahed for something I didn't do. You're ridiculous, if you think I would -ever- do that. Damned ridiculous. And you who believe it? Geez... I'm not sure whether I'm more angry or disgusted. You're more retarded than the person telling the story. *rolls eyes* Stupid people really annoy me.

I... am sick. I have to be. My stomache is killing me, though I attribute that to other reasons at the moment, but even thinking of drinking or eating is making it even worse. I'm just... icky.

My mommy gave me chicken soup today... I may try to put some of that down, since nothing else is working, in the least.

What the hell is with Polly Pocket these days?? SHE'S NOT POCKET-SIZE!! AHHH!!! What -is- that?!

Sorry... One of my random rants these days. LoL This is what you get for watching TV more than once a year. I think it's time to go back to books. Which reminds me, I'm rally enjoying reading Petrarch. He is incredible... His clarifty of thought and process is amazing.