Okay... Faber won last night. Yay! I was so excited for them, if I hadn't been so tired, I'm pretty sure I woulda jumped up and down and been all happy-like, like I'd been for Richie. But, as it was 12:30, and I was completely ready for bed, I managed a few hugs and a few bleary-eyed congrats goodbyes before dirivng home and zonking out on my pillow. Dreamland was pleasant, thanks for asking!
Honestly, I think that A Blind Prophecy did really well, which was also reflected by the difference of what... 2, 3 points? between winner and runner-up. So, I was all excited when Mr. Siner showed up. That guys is so funny, I luv him! hehe (*nods along to Your Winter by Sister Hazel* Why do you choose your pain if you only knew how much I love you?! Love you!? I won't be your winter, I won't be anyone's excuse to cry... We can't be forgiven. And I will be here...) I love this band... They're so good.
I really need to be working on my english essay, but I forget what it's supposed to be about. Oops? *grin* And I have a calculus quiz on Monday... *pout* Poop. I think the campout scheduled for tonight is... messed up. Maybe not. Okies... gtg upload some piccies, Adios!
Friday, November 28, 2003
I saw this on Jeremy's blogger the other day, and figured... hell, why not check it out? So... here goes nothing.
~ Paranoid and Schizoid... Only about wolves in the hottub. Then I get a little paranoid. But generally, there aren't any little green men waiting to abduct me and do "experiments" on me. heh.
~ Schizotypal and Antisocial- Hmm... Lemme look at these definitions. Definitely schizotypal... Didn't I tell you I was psychic? Oh wait... Your shoes are green! Antisocial... "A common misconception is that antisocial personality disorder refers to people who have poor social skills. The opposite is often the case. Instead, antisocial personality disorder is characterized by a lack of conscience. People with this disorder are prone to criminal behavior, believing that their victims are weak and deserving of being taken advantage of. They tend to lie and steal. Often, they are careless with money and take action without thinking about consequences. They are often agressive and are much more concerned with their own needs than the needs of others." Yowsah... Guys, watch out, I have no conscience!!! So, what esxactly is it, that makes me unable to lie to most people? *blink* Maybe it's my innate sense of righteousness.. If I think different, then it msut be so, and so everyone should know exactly what I think! There we go... That's it!
~ Borderline... Um... Hmm... YOU FRIEKING PSYCHO BIT- Can I offer you a cup of tea?
~ Histrionic... Okay, so who hasn't faked sick to stay out of school? Really... LoL nahh...I am a bit of a histrionic, I admit it. I live for mischief, heh. *evil grin*
~ Narcissistic and Avoidant... Well, duh? No one's good enough for me, and I don't like people to begin with. Kind of limiting my options for a future, huh? LoL Oops... Gotta quit that!
~ Dependent... Oh man. No more to be said about that.
~ OC... heh?
| Disorder | Rating |
| Paranoid: | Low |
| Schizoid: | Low |
| Schizotypal: | High |
| Antisocial: | High |
| Borderline: | Low |
| Histrionic: | Moderate |
| Narcissistic: | High |
| Avoidant: | High |
| Dependent: | Low |
| Obsessive-Compulsive: | Moderate |
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! -- | |
~ Paranoid and Schizoid... Only about wolves in the hottub. Then I get a little paranoid. But generally, there aren't any little green men waiting to abduct me and do "experiments" on me. heh.
~ Schizotypal and Antisocial- Hmm... Lemme look at these definitions. Definitely schizotypal... Didn't I tell you I was psychic? Oh wait... Your shoes are green! Antisocial... "A common misconception is that antisocial personality disorder refers to people who have poor social skills. The opposite is often the case. Instead, antisocial personality disorder is characterized by a lack of conscience. People with this disorder are prone to criminal behavior, believing that their victims are weak and deserving of being taken advantage of. They tend to lie and steal. Often, they are careless with money and take action without thinking about consequences. They are often agressive and are much more concerned with their own needs than the needs of others." Yowsah... Guys, watch out, I have no conscience!!! So, what esxactly is it, that makes me unable to lie to most people? *blink* Maybe it's my innate sense of righteousness.. If I think different, then it msut be so, and so everyone should know exactly what I think! There we go... That's it!
~ Borderline... Um... Hmm... YOU FRIEKING PSYCHO BIT- Can I offer you a cup of tea?
~ Histrionic... Okay, so who hasn't faked sick to stay out of school? Really... LoL nahh...I am a bit of a histrionic, I admit it. I live for mischief, heh. *evil grin*
~ Narcissistic and Avoidant... Well, duh? No one's good enough for me, and I don't like people to begin with. Kind of limiting my options for a future, huh? LoL Oops... Gotta quit that!
~ Dependent... Oh man. No more to be said about that.
~ OC... heh?
Thursday, November 27, 2003
I just don't want to feel anything anymore. I just want to be...numb.
I've honestly this this has been the worst week of my entire life. I've had to make so many hard decisions and hear so many things that I just don't want to be me anymore. I don't want to be Kerri, the 17 year old girl, who let allowed her life to blow up infront of her face. Its so much more then I can handle, and I'm on the verge of breaking down. All I want is one person to tell me they've actually gone through the same thing I did, just so I know what I have to do. But theres never a person in the same exact situation as me, and I'm just alone. Always alone but never willing to let it show.
I have no clue whats going on with my relationship of almost 2 years now. Its seemed that in the past week, its been torn to shreds. All I wanted to do is be with him and I can't. So I put off the pissed off aggrivated Kerri and just seem to make things worse for me. I just want someone to love me. Is that so much to ask from one person? I desperatly want things to go back to when we were both happy. But it seems not that that's impossible. Theres no way to turn back now, and it seems theres no reason to go on anymore. It seems to me that everything we had is now gone. And what do you do now? You think that you should try and move on and not call him every 5 minutes to try and find out whats going on with us, but I just can't. I don't want to let everything we had go, but its already slipped away and I don't want to admit it. I try and hang out with my friends, but I just cant. They've all got someone their still happy with after this long, and it just makes me even more depressed. I'm depressed that I'm lonely and everyone else has something I would die to have back. I'm alone. Plain and simple, and I think that destiny has already paved that path for me.
I'm so stressed out that I may say things one way but mean nothing by it. And I know I have a very sarcastic sense of humor, but I can't help it. That's the one thing I can call my own right now.
So, now that everythings off my chest, I'm going to feel this way for the next few hours, days, weeks, maybe even month. I can't take what I've let happen to me, and I just need some time to get past all of this, or even some answers to all this confusion. You don't know what its like to be truly depressed until you actually are.
Hi... I edited part of this. for privzacy and what-not. Not really sure how reads this, but kerri... trust me, babe, I know how you're feeling. Whereas you had a boyfriend for 2 years, I have been on and off with several boys, none of whom have amounted to a long-time boyfriend, for different reasons. But anyway... That's not what I'm trying to get to.
Ever had that feeling where all of a sudden, when you wanted to say something really heart-felt and meaningful, you suddenly jsut don't want to, and you curl up back in your shell? yeah. Well, I jsut curled up. Nevermind. I don't feel like talking about it. *nods* Yup.
Let's jsut leave it at this: it's been rough lately, I know what you were feeling like, though whether my pickle helped or you're still feeling like this now, I'm not sure. So, I luv ya darling, and I'm sorry we can't talk more.
I've honestly this this has been the worst week of my entire life. I've had to make so many hard decisions and hear so many things that I just don't want to be me anymore. I don't want to be Kerri, the 17 year old girl, who let allowed her life to blow up infront of her face. Its so much more then I can handle, and I'm on the verge of breaking down. All I want is one person to tell me they've actually gone through the same thing I did, just so I know what I have to do. But theres never a person in the same exact situation as me, and I'm just alone. Always alone but never willing to let it show.
I have no clue whats going on with my relationship of almost 2 years now. Its seemed that in the past week, its been torn to shreds. All I wanted to do is be with him and I can't. So I put off the pissed off aggrivated Kerri and just seem to make things worse for me. I just want someone to love me. Is that so much to ask from one person? I desperatly want things to go back to when we were both happy. But it seems not that that's impossible. Theres no way to turn back now, and it seems theres no reason to go on anymore. It seems to me that everything we had is now gone. And what do you do now? You think that you should try and move on and not call him every 5 minutes to try and find out whats going on with us, but I just can't. I don't want to let everything we had go, but its already slipped away and I don't want to admit it. I try and hang out with my friends, but I just cant. They've all got someone their still happy with after this long, and it just makes me even more depressed. I'm depressed that I'm lonely and everyone else has something I would die to have back. I'm alone. Plain and simple, and I think that destiny has already paved that path for me.
I'm so stressed out that I may say things one way but mean nothing by it. And I know I have a very sarcastic sense of humor, but I can't help it. That's the one thing I can call my own right now.
So, now that everythings off my chest, I'm going to feel this way for the next few hours, days, weeks, maybe even month. I can't take what I've let happen to me, and I just need some time to get past all of this, or even some answers to all this confusion. You don't know what its like to be truly depressed until you actually are.
Hi... I edited part of this. for privzacy and what-not. Not really sure how reads this, but kerri... trust me, babe, I know how you're feeling. Whereas you had a boyfriend for 2 years, I have been on and off with several boys, none of whom have amounted to a long-time boyfriend, for different reasons. But anyway... That's not what I'm trying to get to.
Ever had that feeling where all of a sudden, when you wanted to say something really heart-felt and meaningful, you suddenly jsut don't want to, and you curl up back in your shell? yeah. Well, I jsut curled up. Nevermind. I don't feel like talking about it. *nods* Yup.
Let's jsut leave it at this: it's been rough lately, I know what you were feeling like, though whether my pickle helped or you're still feeling like this now, I'm not sure. So, I luv ya darling, and I'm sorry we can't talk more.
HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!
I miss it now
I miss being able to say the way that I felt
I don't miss us so much as
I miss being something to you
-LGLF (The good ole days.)
I found this the other day... LoL Hope it doesn't raise any eyebrows, but I know it probably will. People talk. *shrugs* Eh, whatcha gonna do? Anyway... I jsut liked the quote, because honestly, I remember when I was so restless, but could never put words to what I was so restless about. And so... Here ya go. My reason.
Anyway... I'mgonna try to get to the football game today, if i can find someone to go with... If not, well, I guess the Broncos will do without me again! I think Queen Latifah is really pretty. Just watched a commercial that she was on... Very pretty. Anyway... LoL I can't wait till tomorrow and Saturday nights!! Tomorrow, ABP and Faber gonna kick ass, then Saturday, me and everyone gonna have great fun!
OMG... I think the meds that that crackk-doctor put me on is making me more sensitive to allergies, istead of helping me. I have never felt so awful in my life.. Well, maybe. But anyway... I'm going back to watch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. *grin* Yay!
I miss it now
I miss being able to say the way that I felt
I don't miss us so much as
I miss being something to you
-LGLF (The good ole days.)
I found this the other day... LoL Hope it doesn't raise any eyebrows, but I know it probably will. People talk. *shrugs* Eh, whatcha gonna do? Anyway... I jsut liked the quote, because honestly, I remember when I was so restless, but could never put words to what I was so restless about. And so... Here ya go. My reason.
Anyway... I'mgonna try to get to the football game today, if i can find someone to go with... If not, well, I guess the Broncos will do without me again! I think Queen Latifah is really pretty. Just watched a commercial that she was on... Very pretty. Anyway... LoL I can't wait till tomorrow and Saturday nights!! Tomorrow, ABP and Faber gonna kick ass, then Saturday, me and everyone gonna have great fun!
OMG... I think the meds that that crackk-doctor put me on is making me more sensitive to allergies, istead of helping me. I have never felt so awful in my life.. Well, maybe. But anyway... I'm going back to watch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. *grin* Yay!
Monday, November 24, 2003
Sunday, November 23, 2003
Nahh... Not gonna bother. I don't wanna make a website. Screw it. I'm lazy! LoL But, I did jsut run a half-mile... I need to get back in shape... lmao.
Your element is Air. You are an artistic person
with a unique sense of style. You are
intelligent; although prone to wonder in
thought which, prevents you from paying full
attention to most things, constantly active and
most likely like to sing. Constantly moving the
air is a force of nature. One moment you can be
a breeze the next a tornado.
What's your element
Your element is Air. You are an artistic person
with a unique sense of style. You are
intelligent; although prone to wonder in
thought which, prevents you from paying full
attention to most things, constantly active and
most likely like to sing. Constantly moving the
air is a force of nature. One moment you can be
a breeze the next a tornado.
What's your element
You can always tell how bored I am, by how many websites I have on probation. Well, lately, I haven't done a website since my dads. But I'm thinking I may have to try and make another. *nods* Hmm... How to go about it, though, without stepping on any toes? Jsut do it and be like... Ta DA!!!!! ? Hmm... Interesting.
So anyway... I think today I'm going to paly around with all my old pals... frames,tables, maps, etc, and see which one I like the ebst for this particular site... I want it to be good, though I don't really see a point in making one at all, because honestly, I'm not sure whether my heart's in it. Gottta go talk to someone, see what they think. *shrugs* Who knows? It may not be worth my time...
So anyway... I think today I'm going to paly around with all my old pals... frames,tables, maps, etc, and see which one I like the ebst for this particular site... I want it to be good, though I don't really see a point in making one at all, because honestly, I'm not sure whether my heart's in it. Gottta go talk to someone, see what they think. *shrugs* Who knows? It may not be worth my time...