First off, my teeth are killing me. Slowly, painfully, and completely. If this pain does not subside in the next few days, I am demanding a check-up, because... I cannot chew. I have subsisted on Carnation Instant Breakfast and... milk and not much else for the last couple of days.

And. the housing situation has had me worried since... well, since there was a housing situation. And... I'm slowly but surely coming to the conclusion that no one wants to live in the Gansett house. No one. I have emailed like... 8 people, everyone who could possibly live in that house, and... NO ONE WANTS TO LIVE THERE!!! God, I hate that fucking house. Hate it. LoL I have never had such a chemistry problem with anything like I have with that house. A structure of wood, steel, and cement, and I hate it like I have never hated anything or anyone. With one possible exception. And I'm not going into that. LoL

But really... I was thinking about it and there are such pros and cons to both housing places, I'm coming to the conclusion that it all weighs out in the end and fate is going to roll this die. I mean, the guys are graduating and no matter how much I may dislike the outside influences present in our house, I absolutely love Dave and Kate and Kevin. So... I figure that I have put in the best effort I possibly could, and I have asked every single person I can find on that damned website, and if I can't find someone, then... everything happens for a reason. Maybe I am jsut supposed to learn how to live and deal? Forgive and forget? Stand up for myself in a forthright manner? Who knows? There are so many things I could learn, we ALL could learn.

But... The real reason for starting this writing session is actually none of the above. Has to do with all, but is not exactly what's above.

I'm getting resigned to the idea that I may have to live in this house. So... If I actually HAVE to do this, I want an interview. Just like any other roomie, I want an interview.

But not really an interview- let's call it a house meeting over the summer, not in the house. Yes? And we'll have it out. I know kevin's pissed, wouldn't even speak to me on the way to the lease signing, Dave's Dave, Kate's... Well, who knows what's going on with kate? I just don't place any bets in her corner.

God, the whole thing makes me want to cry. Face up to the people who I have problems with?! Who does that?? NOT ME!!! Run run run!!! Maybe that's what this is all about. Face your fears, woman. Maybe this is the kick in the ass that Fate sees necessary for my education. *Shakes head*

You are a cruel bitch, Fate.