Okay... So, Nick... Erm, yeah. Seems like a nice guy. Even got three pictures off me! Can you beleive that> I actually willingly, though reluctantly, gave out pictures... of myself, no less!!! Small talk is hard... I have a rough time doing it... And actually, I'm really dreading these guys coming down to RI. I don't know why... Just... not into it. Not only do I need to get myself into chit-chat mode, but I also have to arrage for proper companions... And I'm tlaking major hulking, strong people. Don't get me wrong. I am paranoid. I want people there to kick the shyt out of them should anything happen.

Anyway... today was fun. I went to that barn in S. County, and checked out those two three year olds. I'm never going to be able to make it there every day, but those two horses are very cute. Steel and Bubba are thir names. Wicked cute. Their owner is soo sad. I feel so bad for her. She really loves her ponies, but ugh... Anyway, i can't wait to go down and actually ride. It was too muddy today, so... tomorrow, I'm heading to Foster to paly with that pony. Should be fun, too! hehe

Okay... It was awesome. I shouldn't have worried, as I knew I shouldn't have, but hey... What's the fun if you don't worry a bit? LoL I'm such a goddamn priss. Anyway, I did end up going with Brennan and Mike, and i almsot got to drive back, but Brennan's brakes were acting funny on the way home, so.. .When I nearly crashed us going 5 miles an hour, Brennan was like... No. So, willingly, I gave up my command and took back my troublemaking perch in the copilot seat. The Ataris, Dropkick Murphys, AAR, Mest, Less Than Jake, and all the toehrs sounded Freiking AWESOME!!!!

I was so disgusted that we didn't get there in time for Yellowcard, and Joe telling me how great it was this morning jsut made it that much worse. It was bad enough having to leave Less Than Jake early, but Geez... Miss half the concert than make me miss one of my absolute fav bands? Oy vey! Oy vey! And now's the conciliation prize. It was very nice of brad, who loves to make a big stink out of this, as if I owe him my life, to give me a ride, or mention to Brennan that I might need one. But man, kid, chill. I know, I'm grateful, you don't have to make me grovel. I won't. And by the way. Knock it off with the names. I don't need it, you shouldn't either, and I'm sure people who have never met me before and don't know me, sure don't, either. I'm sorry... That last comment you amde, it went a bit over the top. So... fair warning was given.

Anyway... Warped Tour was great. I had an awesome time playing in the crowds, even though at times I felt like I was going to die, LoL! I got so much free stuff, though I do wonder where my Blue man group tshirt went! So, yeah... it was awesome! By the end of the day, though, I thought my legs and back were going to break loose and go walk off to the car by themselves... But hey, it was so worth it. And the kid inthe box? I wish I'd remembered my camera... Priceless. "Please... I live in a box, Can i have some money??" LMAO! So, it was wicked fun all day long. I looked for Juice and Tcapp, and anyone else I knew, but all i saw were Mike Fox, and a couple kids from Pawtucket that I knew, sorta...

Juice always has such adventures... I listen to him tell his stories about the cocnert, and I'm like.. .Damn... No wonder why we broke up! I'm too much of a wimp for him!! Lmao! He's like... "Yeah, this huge kid was jsut going around seinging in the pits, at everyone in the crowd, so when i got a chance, I jsut punched him!" Inside, I'm like... Dude! I wish I was a guy! And on the outside, I'm like... Oh man, that coulda been bad... *shakes head* Sometimes, i wonder what I would've been like with a bit more jazz, and a lot less self-restraint. Probably a lot like my mom when she was younger... *grin* Well, maybe not -that- bad!

So, tomorrow, I'm heading down to S. County for a job thingy... Could be fun, who knows? 2- three year-olds, preofessionally trained, but haven't been ridden in months... *grin* Oculd be a lot of fun, actually... Let's see... How fast can Abby get her head split open on a fence post? hehe Like I said... could be fun! hehe

And now I'm pooped, after having given away the first puppy of the litter... (I cried, jsut so everyone knows... Like a baby.) Halft-time... Now named, and can you get this, "Max." He will always be little Halftime to me... I miss the little bugger already. And the little girl who owns him? What a frelling BEAST!!! If I was owned by her, I'd turn feral, spots and all! Anyway... So, along with that, I had Livvy, Fin,, and their parents over, all of whom quickly got the message that I wanted to be left alone, but only after I got whacke dupside the ehad with the goddamned horse, three times, wrrestled it away from my violent little cuz, and hid it in my closet. After which, she promptly went to her parents and started screaming, so they got after me, heard my side of the tory, and yelled at her... and well... ti was jsut not a great night for relaxing. So... hehe! I'll deal! Horsies tomorrow!!! And SUNDAY!!! YAY!!!! How lucky can one girl be? hehe TTFN! Ta-Ta-For-NOW!

I'm worried. Like, I'm all excited, but super worried, too. What if everyone hates me tomorrow, and I'm like... shunned? OMG... I'd cry. Yeah, and Linds, quit making fun of me and my "dew rag" Frell off. Lol So anyway, back on topic. The alst time I talked to these people, they basically hated me. Now... I've made up with Brad and brennan and all them, but geez... What is tara and leslie and all them hate me? Girls are so hard to make up with. I don't know why. Maybe it's because when you're of the same sex, it's easier to hold a grudge? Or maybe they really do hate me?

Maybe i should jsut go to bed and deal with it as it comes? But seriously... Where's the fun in that? Besides I have one mroe song to go before my time's up. And now... Now's that song... 3 more minutes I have.

So, yeah. I went to see Pirates of the Caribbean a couple nights ago with Sarah Buchanan, and well... It was awesome. We went to the Providence Place Mall, and got the best deal on food afterwards. Like, half the price, double the food, jsut so they could get rid of it! Me and Sarah pigged out, but there was still a ton of food left over!! So, we've decided that the deal to Prov Place Mall, is to go to a movie, or hang around till just about 9, 9:15, then go to places that already have the food made, and get the best deals! Lol While we were there, there were some guys, well... a LOT of people sitting around us, and it was kind of funny, because either I must be stupid or jsut too ignorant to know better. Anyway, the people were all black, and wearing dewrags, and all that good stuff. I was a bit wary, but not overly alarmed, constantly checking Sarah for a reaction from her. Like... I wasn't alarmed, jsut... watching. Either way, on back thought, I came to the conclusion that I'm either ignorant or stupid ebcause one, I'm ignorant because I wasn't alarmed, and stupid because Hello. Just because ther aren't many black people in Burrillville, not all of them are in gangs, and from personal experience, a lot of people from Providence wear dewrags and Most of them are nice enough (to me, anyway.). But, really, that's a situaiton in which I wish I had more knowledge in how to handle it. Because really, I was clueless. Damned Burrillville. Sheltered and naive. Don't get me wrong, I love my town, but geezus. It doesn't really prepare you for more populated areas. *shakes head* I know if Linds were there, I would've felt better, because then I would've had someone else to bounce off of, and get my reaction, but man... Anyway, it turned out fine, and I had a great time. But still... I wish I wasn't so... Hicksville-ish. (Lmao... Homecoming was almsot themed Hillbilly Hoedown... Be Proud of your Town!)

So... What else? LoL Oh. So yeah... Andy said that "Payback's a bitch" for TP'ing his room... I jsut want him to know that I had nothing to do with the TP, I did the seran wrapping... His shoes and trash can, mainly. *snickers* He probably meant me for that... I did those shoes sooo well. Lmao. What else?

Oh yeah! I hug out with all the student council peoples yesterday in Freshman Whatever. Icebreakers are fun! Yay! Then we all talked about Homecoming and the teacher's luncheon, and freshman orientation. I'm in for Freshman orientation. Nothing for the rest of it. LoL I saw Chris and it was funny... we were so bored by the last hour of the meeting... He was making funny faces and pretending to die, and I was pretending to be asleep, and making funny faces back. Mr. Trogisch kept looking at me, so I'd smile and lookattentice for another 30 seconds, then get back to stretching in my seat, and making funny faces.

I'm so excited! I don't ahv eto scalp my Warped Tour ticket... My frineds found a ride for me, and I'm going with them. Thank you Brad and Brennan! I love you both! They found us last night at papa Gino's, and I gave them each big hugs. I asked Joe if he'd possibly find me a ride or someone to buy my ticket yesterday, I was so desperate. Lmao. I'm avoiding the kid now! I knew he wouldn't even really try, unless it was so sell my ticket, because then Chris could go, but... If I couldn't get a ride, that's what I'd be needing. So, I'm very glad I got a ride. It's going to be great.

Congrats on buying your truck Chris!! Don't get into too much trouble... (Lmao, What am I saying? It's Chris!!! Of course he'll get in trouble!) Either way, good deal, I hope it all works out for you!!!

I was reading Naomi's blogger adn fell across something that really struck me. So... I wroter her a comment, but it jsut didn't sound right in a comment box, so... here I will C&P it for your viewing pleasure. It's a message for everyone, not jsut one soul. Everyone should know the lgiht and dark of it all.

"I think that is similar to one of my oldest quotes, and one I rely on whenever I'm having a bad day, to bring me, eventually, out of the murk and gloom, to a better place. "There can be no light without darkness." A double negative, I know, but hey. It makes it sound more impressive. *grin* No, really... It's a quote that makes you realize that in order to have the good things in life, you must have the bad, or you won't appreciate them. And how can you keep getting happy things? It would make everything seem bad, in one way or another. You will eventually be disappointed, so... Give it up. You can't always have the light without the dark. Or the good without the bad. Ya know what/ This is going in my blogger. It's really such a great theme for talking about.

I was actually saying something along the lines of that in my blogger tonight. With horses, I cannot live without them. I feel like I suffocate, the air is heavier, thicker, without my horses, without any horses. But... After the pain of denial, and the near physical ache of withdrawal, when you finally get back on and are able to take your fill, it's so much sweeter for(because of) the sour."

(Do you know? I beleive the fen-shui of this new Blogger prohibits my writing. Soon as I C&P'd it here, I could no longer think of anyhting productive on this topic. And it ahs been so since the new layout. How sucky for me.)

Oh well... Good night and good luck to all of you fighting for the light. Your darkness will soon be gone, and the shadows will be lifted to frame something far brighter.

LMAO! You know what I found funny tonight? Ally and tara and Dave and Patty were all at Applebeee's tonight, while me and the old crew were taking Kerri out for dinner tonight. It was her bday today! So much fun at ehr aprty! We all were racing around with squirtguns and whatnot. Whacking each other with noodles, playing hide and seek, etc. Anyway... Ally was tlaking to tara adn patty about me as I was sitting there, and they were discussing how they'd been wondering if it was me in the 2nd next booth over. So, Ally was like, "Oh yeah. I was like, 'It's gotta be Abby! I see her thumbs!' " LMAO. So... it immediately brought to mind my last post, no wonder! hehe Because it was actually the thumb I'd been wondering about, in particular. Anyway, I jsut thought that was funny.

So, yeah. I had a wicked lot of fun tonight, which makes me wonder if maybe I wasn't jsut being paranoid on Tuesday. I mean... I had a WICKED good time tonight. LoL Tofer and Kyle were there, and they made me happy! I love them both!! As well as that, it wasn't like... I dunno. It was different than it was on Tuesday.

So, SB's back from National Leadership Camp, up in Schenectady, NY, and I dragged her over to KErri's for a bit, then she put my last band-aid on my car, and we're gonna put MC and MD on them... Ms./Mr. Deer and Ms./Mr. Chipmunk. (*jams to Date Rape by Sublime* "If it wasn't for date rape, I'd never get laid...") Anyway, it was jsut a really good night. And I was going to go for a run to the beach and back, but hey. I'll go tomorrow. Put out my clothes tomorrow. Actually go and run. ("SHE LIES, That LITTLE SLUT!!!" I love Sublime. They're jsut awesome.)

I really hope Brad can find room for me in the cars... I really want to go with them. I miss them all, and well... I really want to go with them.

Anyway, I'm going to hang out with SB and see (*jams to Harder to Breathe by Maroon 5*)Pirates of the Caribbean tomorrow night, then sleep over and go to a Student Council meeting Tuesday morning. I'm so exited! Who knows who else we'll drag with us? Lol Christine's driving because we might end up in Providence by the end of the night. ("Is there anyone out there, because it's getting harder and harder to breathe." There's a great beat on this song, I love it!)

I am on a quest for a new horsey. Lessons are dirinv gme INSANE!!! I can't stand only riding once a week, and I cannot stand the thought of getting to know and lvoe a horse only to have osmoene else fuck it up, or sell it, or whatever. It'd piss me off endlessly, and I can't deal with the way I have to constantly be on my guard to not allow any real affection for something... It makes me so sad. So, anyway... I jsut need to get a enw job with ponies. And I will, if it kills me. So, here i am. I'm on a quest. Like SeaQuest? Anyone remember that show? With the talking dolphin? No? Eh, well, it was good. Lol The dolphin's name was Sebastian, I beleive.