Well, well. If this doesn't appear to be the time for swift kicks in the ass, I'm not sure what else it could be. Hmm... I had written that this one was less cruel and more helpful, but I took it back. Nope. It was cruel and cold and... exactly what I needed. I found myself agreeing to it, and well, that was enough for me! I started in on doing my work right away! And, I'm happy to report, I'm happy doing it.

I am... tired. Unbearably so. And riled, unfortunately, a devastating combination. Oooh... The baseboardis warm on my toes... It feels so nice..

My hair is straightened. It looks pretty. Maybe tomorrow I'll try to look pretty... Probably not. I'm shallow but not vain. A walking contradiction, I think. Carolyn says she doesn't get it. I expect pretty boys- which I get!- but I refuse to put any effort into my own appearance... Or, rather, I look like I jsut don't care... Which I rarely do. Jeans, hoody, hair up/down/combed/ratty. Whatever. On those rare days when I doll up, the difference is just that much better. Maybe tomorrow will be a doll-up day. Probably not, it's Friday.

Drugs really bother me. -Really-. And I know you... I want to help. It's my rescuer complex. BUt I can't, and I know it. I can't do -anything-, except support you and show you that it's not the only way. Funny how you're the one who ends up giving me a boost most of the time... *Smirks* Maybe we're both so fucked up, we jsut don't realize how much we like to hang with people of the same ilk- makes us feel better about ourselves.

God, it's late... Don't ever let me write when it's lat.e..

An update? I've decided that I have no time for fun anymore. (hah... WE all know I'm dead lying, because I can always find time to slack off... Like right now!!) But seriously. This Physics exam coming up? I spent almost all night last night with Andrew, and yeah... It's going to be so bad, I can't find myself doing anything but laughing and working on BioChem. hahah I swear, if I don't bring up my grade from that lazt exam, I'm going to kick myself. Seriously, since when have I EVER gotten below the average? NEVER!! And it will NEVER happen again. Mark my words. Which is why, soon as I'm done writing this, I'm packing up my shit and heading to school. LoL So I can take an exam, then head to hte library and study for a bit.

All I can say is, Thaknk God these chapters are short. There's a shitload of info, but at least the chapters are short. LoL

Mom and I made CD's this weekend. They're incredible. I made one on my own, and then Mom helped me make the second. I love them both. One has Carrie UNderwood on it, the othr has Travis, one has Dead Man's party, the other has I Loved er but I had to kill her! Lmao. It's fantastic.

I came home today to an empty house- a very surprising event, and... so had my own little Stereowars. It was fantastic. Between me and my plants, I had a grea time just... dancing and jiving and sing/screaming, and... being silly. hehe It was a great time.

What else?? Spring Break's coming up!! I hope, I hope I can find enough cash to head to Florida with Laura, Laura, and Danielle... That'd be INCREDIBLE! hehe YAY!

Boondocks is on a CD, too... hehe I love it.

LMAO Heather W. was in front of me in traffic getting out of the school today, and I waved, and she was all confused and flustered, so when i caught up to her later and pulled alongside, se burst out laughing and waving. I was like... Yeaaahhh!!! hehehe

Aww... Andrew's so cute. I was being so uncommonly catty to his last night. I don't know why. I think I was being really defensive and just... weird. I'm really unsure of why. And he was just like... Yeah, I've been mean to you, too... Don't worry about it. I felt horrible. I think I'll ring him CHicken pot pie tonight. OOOH!!! What a good idea!!! YESSS!!!