Wow... Blogger's back! And with a new, improved look! yay! So, yup... My great new plan, it startd off well, then fell flat on its face. *grin* I couldn't do it. I'm jsut so unsure of everything at this moment... And yet... I know. Lmao. I'm such a confused kid!!! Like... Which way did he go, George, which way did he go!? Uhh... Thatta way!! *points left and right* Ever seen that Bugs Bunny cartoon? It's pretty hilarious!

Cabaret playing, and all i can hear is Liza Minelly screaming as the train rumbles overheard... And Mein Herr is playing onthe CD player. "You mustn't knit or frown Mein Herr, You've every reason to doubt Mein Herr..." God, i love that movie and this song- It is my absolute favorite! I'm such a sucker for a good musical.

Anyway... I have a bit of the res itchy shyt now, but... it's not half bad. I can't beleive how many people there are at Spring Lake. Both parking lots are compeltely full! I can see why none of the locals ever swim in there... it's disgusting! Anyway... Went to Meagan's with Lindsey today, and swam with her and Mitch for a little while. it was fun! LoL But, now, my grandparents are over, so... I gtg. I won't be back until Saturday night... You might see me on tomorrow, but... not for long, and I can't do anyhting. Besides that, it's highly doubtful that i'll be able to do anyhtign Saturday night, beyond falling down dead in my sleeping bag.

I'm so depressed that I can't go to the concert tomorrow night. I'd been looking forward to it for so long, and now I can't go because of the frelling boat. I want to cry. I shut the radio down every time 95.5 mentions it... I wanted to go see Zox sooo bad. And I can't go to the one tonight either, as I'll be on the boat. *sigh* I wonder why I'm not like some people and jsut scream, cry, whine until they get their way? I jsut kinda go off to my own little corner, and cry for a bit, then walk over to the rest of the crowd and pretend I'm fine. *shrugs* Screw it. I can't go... Get over it.

Ack! I gtg! Told Linds I'd go see her at 3!! Lol Bye bye bye!!!

OMG... There's nothing. No rash. No Itchy. No Nothing. I refuse to let myself go off the wall, screaming, shouting and otherwise jsut flipping out with glee, because the rash could jsut be tricking me into a false sense of confidence. But Oh god... I'm so excited. Like... I could go out and roll in the grass, fling myself off the rope swing, and die happy on the rocks below. Lmao!! hehe J/k. Nahh... I'm going out on the boat today, and I'm going... SWIMMING!! You hear me? SWIMMING!!! *dances around, screaming, happy happy happy* Oh man... Just sitting here typing, I can feel the muscles in my legs tensing, jsut wanting to spring me up and dance. I'm so excited.

But anyway... My arms are not killing me, which jsut proves that I could swim across the lake if I really wanted to. I jsut need to get out and do it. Hey Lindsey... wanna get buff? We'll take up swimming this summer! Because I CAN!!!! Okay... Maybe no one realizes what a monumental moment this is for me. I have not been able to swim in anything freshwater that is not so heavily chlorinated that frogs jumping in would shrivel up and die, since I was 10. The fact that I actually swam in Spring Lake, my number one enemy in the fight against this rash.... It means I can actually go swimming. I don't ahve to watch anymore while everyone else goes in, I don't have to "forget" my bathing suit, I don't have to be persuaded in, then scratch for three days straight, then not emerge from my hosue ebcause I can't stand to let anyone see me because I'm a swollen red scar. I'm crying I'm so happy. Which is not good, because I shoved water so far up my nose yesterday, it ruptured the BBB in my brain. LMAO. Good ole BBB. So, needless to say, I've got tears running down my face, and I'm choking to death on this lump in my throat from being all stuffed up. I hate allergies... LoL. I have problems. hehe

Anyway... Went shopping, and got these awesome little shirts, one of which is light blue, with "Squeaky clean Car Wash" On hte front in iridescent letters... I love it! And dad's agreed to let me buy shads for .50 cents apiece! So i can hang them up in my room, and watch them glow at night... How neato frito can you get? (Now, you're prolly all thinking... WTF are shads? Well, lemme tell you!) Isn't it funny how the girl who hates water, baots, and fishing most of all, who was roped into being a first mate on her dad's charter boat, learn how to rig up fishing rigs, and be nice to people, is now putting fishing lures up around her room as decorations? I thought so... Which is why I laugh at myself every time I think about it. of course, I sitll hate fishing and boats... But water... well, *grin* Now that I can do what I love to do in it (yay Swimming!), I think I may get over my hatred for it.

did you ever hate something becauseyou couldn't do it? Or down someone because you were jealous? Like... Who hte hell would want a name like Chantrel? But really actually like it, and wish your name was as pretty and sweet as that? (Swear to God, I never downed Chantrel, that girl's scary!!!) Or like... Ugh, Seriously, who would dress like that!? And secretly wish you had enough guts to go out and wear pants like them? Well, that was me and Water. I love swimming. But, when I found out I couldn't swim for 10 minutes without being in agony for weeks on end, I hated Water. water was the enemy. I avoided it at all costs, and I hated anyhting to do with it!! yay! Luv ya! gtg!

Wow... A lot of stuff since then, i htought I had written... *shrugs* Eh, whatever! So, I slept over Kaite's house, and we talked a lot, and we made up stupid plans, and then we decided they were stupid, so now we're on to the track of other stupid plans. But anyway...

I went swimming today in Spring Lake. I am jsut waiting for my immune system to react to the shock like it always has, of lake water, and break out in this really itchy, nasty rash for a few days, then have to wait a few more weeks before the scratches and scars heal up. Sounds so exciting, now dunnit? Lmao!! Now, you may be wondering why I put myself through this hell, but really, people. Did no one else walk out in the heat today? I was DYING!!!! Anyway... i went off the rope swing, then me and Lindsey swam to the middle of the lake, and back. Wow... My arms are going to be killing me tomorrow, Lol

So, yesterday, Me and Katie hung out with Brad and Erik, and I forogot how much I miss those guys, though hoenstly, I thought Brad was kidna being a dick. maybe he was jsut trying to impress katie. Prolly. Anyway... It was a good bball game, especially when i was actually trying, after I got elbowed in the eye. *grin* Yes... i have a nice little bruise under my eye for that, as well as a red bump on my cheek where it was actually hit. Good job, Brad! Lol

Anything else? Nopers... Calling in to work tomorrow so I can go on the boat with my aunt, dad, cousin, brother, a a few friends. hehe Its gonna be fun! Yay!!!! Anyway... tired, going to bed. Night Night. BTW... last day before the day of the "Stupid Plan."

Ugh... rain. I hung out with Ala this morning. What a life-saver that girl is. I had my whole rejection sentence typed out, and though it was based in truth, it was still a bit of a lie. But, on a whim, i was like... I'll bring ya back home, no worries. I woulda shot ymself if I hadn't ahd that girl over. Thank you Ala. I'm sorry for even thinking of being a bitch.

So, we went visiting chris, Matt, and Missa J. Chris wa still kinda... off, so... we took off after a bit, after he told us he wanted to take a shower, then we went to go see Matt, woke him up, hehe, and hung out with him nad his dog, Spencer, who is such a cute Staffordshire Terrier. Or... Pitbull. Fun fun fun! Then over to Missa's, where we crashed a party, and hung out with all my pals, who... I must say, I feel much more at ease with, than with the crowd I hun with last ngiht. Like... I dunno. I can be sillier and not worry about being called stupid. *shrugs* Maybe it's jsut cause I don't know the rules anymore of the "new crowd".

Anyway, I forgot how much I miss Mike and Corey. At least, when they call me stupid and hope I die, which they never say, I know they're kidding. And I can jump on their back or throw something at them, and laugh when it hits them and they're like... Whoah! What's up with that!!!

Lmao. Just went on to the old old LGLF website... *shakes head* That was so long ago. I remember when I first went on to it, and me and Juice had these really stupid conversations about designing them. And he said content is better than color. And that color shouldn't matter if what you say is good. *shrugs* I still say color is an important thing in a website. (jsut look at anything i design... Proves the point!) *chuckle* Isn't it funny how old conversations suddenly pop up when you look at something from a while ago?

So, yeah... gazebo. Girls, I don't think I will ever live it down if anyone reads that. Now... I just need to think of soemthing else to put on there about you guys... But there's no real dirt on you... *snickers* though I'm sure I could make something interesting up, hehe Poll tables and whatnot don't come along everyday, huh?

Last night was wicked fun. me and Steph over at Sheri's grad party. I really wasn't sure how it would end up, but it was pretty decent! Beachball and Surfing USA. Go Jessie and Christine!! LoL I wish I'd gotten there earlier to see LGLF play, but eh... maybe I'll get to see them some other time. I swear to God, I always wanted to see them paly, and I never got to one of their shows! It's like... Eleanor, for me. Not as sweet as a '67 Shelby, but still untouchable. If it was up to me, though, I'd get both of them... Unfortunately, the Gods don't play by Abby's rules, so... I jsut get to see LGLF, hehe, Better yet...I'd have my Shelby, with LGLF playing in the back seat... Or on this huge trailer that would be pulled alongside, so I could sit and stare and sing along, while driving. Now -that's- what I call Driven! God... I really do make the worst jokes!!! lmao