I feel awful. Not sad, just... sick. My stomache is not doing so well right now, and I didn't sleep at all last night because I was sick and... l just want to pass out until I feel better. Not a bad idea, honestly... I'm going to get on that.

Today was a day of broken, then making other, plans. I woke up thinking I was going to bring Seth to the airport, surprise the guy who hates surprises, then go riding and come home to help Mom do party stuff. I got half done- not bad by my normals standards, but... the two FUN things were the ones that didn't get done! No surprises (which, let me tell you, are just as much fun to plan as to have done to you haha) and no riding! So... I made other plans. I went to coffee and movies (Mamma Mia- I am s buying that film, it is AMAZING!) with Carolyn. Then sat at her house and chit-chatted with her Mom and her about stuff- how I've been failing and will continue to fail, at being employed; how this is affecting my outlook for the school year and how much stress it is going to impart to me in the form of Poe and housing and loans; how Carolyn and I are overwhelmed by the prospect of having to get all our shit done for the respective grad/med school applications; boys; life in general.

On the upside, I got my proposal back from Jenny and she made minor corrections, so it's ready to go! We're doing paperwork next week, then sending this shindig into the committee and... Voila! It's time for the school year to start!

I should make a list of all the deadlines and stuff I need for these applications. I also need to make a list of stuff I need to have done or be doing before school starts. I also need to do my stretches- I ran today! Very short bursts, but running nonetheless! I think the stuff I've been doing that Lori (PT) told me is working! Yay!

Mmm... So yeah. Also... SB.

Goddammit! Fucking KNEE! I'm very angry at my knee right now. It's broken again! Not even the bad knee, but the GOOD KNEE! Argh. I gave it 6 weeks!!! Doc said 4!!! Grr... NOW who's gonna ride Poe? Someone tell me this!

Also, Im going on a date!