Okay... Cna i jsut say that I am probably the most confused, aggravated, angry, sad, rediculously happy, and screwed up person I know? All at once. Fuck boys, who needs them? I can live with my... Whatever and be quite happy. Who needs them? I mean, they're dumb and aggravating, and hopelessly cute all at the same time, making you want to hit them and hug them at the same time. *snarl*

So, anyway, the whole scoop is in the SB, but the basic layaway was that I tweaked out, for no reason apparent to me, except for the fact that I was grossly disturbed about the smell of weed and the person doing it is somewhat close, and the person driving was drinking and smoking. I will never ever go into a situation like that again. Ever.

Forget it. *snarls* I'm so mad when I htink about it, I'm pretty sure I could spit and rip someone's face to shreds with my nails. heh ... Wouldn't that be a pretty sight? LoL

Can't wait for work tonight... I hope Kenny's working so I can take out some frustration on him. heh How much fun can you have? LoL

Heh... Track meet today? Thought it was at the same place as last year, but nope! At Ponaganset, and trust me, I was not about to go all out on that track again. I really thought I would, but for the last 100m, I was flat-foot running the whole time and still managed to be gaining on 2nd place- damn the slow competition. I definitely hate that place and was not about to wipe myself out in a race of futility. Forget it. So, I ran hard, but definitely not my hardest or I woulda kicked ass. Shoot me for having instincts for self-preservation. LoL

Hah... Self-preservation? I never woulda gotten into that car last ngiht and risked self-destruction! LMAO. FECK OFF!!!

Hi, I'm the biggest slacker ever, hanging in MCNulty's class, screwing off on his computer while he teaches. heh. Oops?

Anyway, Ala and SB, not a word about the comments yesterday, it's not definite, jsut brattishness on the spot. So, stay quiet, please, both of you. And everyone else, kk? Thanks. Back to Chemistry now, adiso!

I'm kinda hurt, but I think I'm jsut really really overtired and really really really stressed. I should've worked on my lecture or something today, but I jsut couldn't. Whatever. I suck at life, yeah yeah yeah. Whatever. Anyway... It's in hte SB, jsut for future reference. Shower time, then bed, then up at 6 for school at 6:45. ADISO!

Can I bitch at myself? I really don't have beef with anyone except me at the moment. As Ben said, "High on life peope aren't supposed to have problems." No shyt? Really? Damn. I must not be high on life then.

I have a problem with jocks. I find them arrogant, self-centered, and egocentric assholes. Maybe it only seems that way because I've never really been friends with one. I mean, I usually find that when you meet people, they're all basically okay, except for some of the real doozies out there who are just crazy! I mean, I get along with Kraig Keegan okay, but I think that may jsut be becuase we've always got along- he's a nice kid. But I mean, I don't wanna know about the dark underworld. heh Sounds scary... heh

Anyway... I was a complete bitch to Nick today becuase I had a real problem with his friends. And I know that sounds like a wicked dick thing to say, which is why I'm planning on apologizing later. I mena, he's a nice kid too... And I enjoy being wiht him, but when he's with his friends, I don't even say hi, because I have a severe inferiority complex. Really. OMG, It sounds so bad coming out of my mouth. I'm ready to hit myself. See how twisted this has me!?!

Just twisted. And Bitch. Did I mention that?

Oy... The things that are going on! I don't want to graduate, because I really don't want to go to college. I'm not old enough to go to college, I don't think i can handle my new freedoms. Nope, nope! My mom was crying the other day, mainly because of the pain from her neck surgery, but at the same time was bawling to my g-rents how it was relal troubling her that I dislike URI as much as I do. I don't dislike URI, let me jsut set that straight. I didn't like it before, when we went to visit it and all that, and I saw the campus, yah de friekign dah. Right now? Right now I HATE URI. It's not that I don't want to go there, it's that I don't want to go to college. BUt mostly, I really really really don't wna tot go to URI, where I'm practically being forced to go. And I think that's my biggest beef about it. Yay. Full scholarship, yay we're poor. I understand why I'm going, but in every inch of my body, I'm ready to scream out... I'm not ready for this!!!!! Maybe it's just me being afraid of change again- probably. And when I get there and settled in, I'll probably love it.

Whatever. Blah. Fuck it. I'll go and smile and nod. And probab;y have tons of fun.

(Ya know, I really did wake up this morning, look outside and say yeah baby, I'm hanging out with katie today, it's gonna be great! And then I came down here, thought about what was on my mind, and this mind vomit came out. LoL But really, I'm not in a bad mood, swear!)

So, anyway... YAY! I'm hanging out with Katie today!