Oy... The things that are going on! I don't want to graduate, because I really don't want to go to college. I'm not old enough to go to college, I don't think i can handle my new freedoms. Nope, nope! My mom was crying the other day, mainly because of the pain from her neck surgery, but at the same time was bawling to my g-rents how it was relal troubling her that I dislike URI as much as I do. I don't dislike URI, let me jsut set that straight. I didn't like it before, when we went to visit it and all that, and I saw the campus, yah de friekign dah. Right now? Right now I HATE URI. It's not that I don't want to go there, it's that I don't want to go to college. BUt mostly, I really really really don't wna tot go to URI, where I'm practically being forced to go. And I think that's my biggest beef about it. Yay. Full scholarship, yay we're poor. I understand why I'm going, but in every inch of my body, I'm ready to scream out... I'm not ready for this!!!!! Maybe it's just me being afraid of change again- probably. And when I get there and settled in, I'll probably love it.

Whatever. Blah. Fuck it. I'll go and smile and nod. And probab;y have tons of fun.

(Ya know, I really did wake up this morning, look outside and say yeah baby, I'm hanging out with katie today, it's gonna be great! And then I came down here, thought about what was on my mind, and this mind vomit came out. LoL But really, I'm not in a bad mood, swear!)

So, anyway... YAY! I'm hanging out with Katie today!