Oh man... that concert last night was wicked fun... And I realized wha that smell from way back when, is. Weed. No wonder why I'm so fcuked up, huh? LoL I smelled it last night adn was like, "Hmm... smells familiar..." Elise got groped by seom guy who, though he was wicked good-looking in that bad-boy kind of way, was definitely a player. He was funny and all that, but geez... he creeped us out after he kept following us aorund after that. And after she told Richie what happened, he was all wicked protective, LoL. I couldn't help but laugh a bit and jsut watch, per usual.

I saw Alex, the one i met with Leslie at The Ring. He was wicked funny all night! But he is a funny kid, so... It's not unusual, I suppose! hehe Anyway... The concert was frieking insane!! I loved it! ZOX was by far the bext, but Bad Fish, Baddy Larry and Immune were all pretty awesome, too! The first band I didn't really like, but I suppose that was because I was sitlll kinda getting used to it all, and you couldn't even really decipher through their rythms... Like, they weren't bad, but they weren't as good as the others. I jsut didn't like them as much.

ZOX was sooo kick-ass. Like, i know everyone loved Badfish, but I thought ZOX was the real show-stealer. They were jsut soo impressive with the violin and everyhing... Don't think it may have something to do with my love of violin music, huh?... Anyway...

So I'm not trustworthy, huh? That really bugs me. Like, it bugged my when Carly's mum said i was "wild" but geez... Untrustworthy? i know I have faults, quite a few indeed, but I try to be a good kid, as best I can. I never lie to my parents, and I try not to lie to my friends... What more do you people want?!?! That statement really cut me to the core. I don't do drugs, I don't drink, smoke, I don't slack off too bad, and I don't put myself into too many life-threatening situations!! WHAT THE HELL!?!? Why do people get the impression that I'm bad? Is it the way I dress? I'll not change how I dress so that someone can put me into a box of what I'm suppsoed to be like. If you don't know me well enough to realize who or how I am, and still make judgements about me, then you're just a judgemental, hurtful person who I would not want to associate with. I'm sorry, but You know who I'm tlaking about, and I don't care how out of bounds I am, I refuse to give up who i am for some predestined "way" that I'm suppsoed to look/act.

That does not mean I have changed my morals or my own laws of behaving. I am still the good child.

Oh man... I was jsut writing an email to Matt, and was explaining about track Practice... I really don't think anyone realizes jsut how proud of myself, I am. Does anyone know jsut how truly horrible I am at running? Or, how much I absolutely hate it because I'm so crappy at it? The fact that I can do 3/4 of a mile straight off without falling voer dead afterward, then go one and run SOME MORE.... Really. Like, if I wasn't so exhausted and trualy took the time out to think about how much of an accomplishment that is for me, I'd prolly cry for joy. Like, really. I don't even know how to explain it. I jsut think about it and swell to the size of a contented robin, or soemthing. Anyway. Yeah. I can't explain it to the depth of my emotions, but... I'm proud of myself.

I feel as if I'm one of those three-armed paper hangers. There's jsut not enough hours in the day for all the things I'd like to get done... What with track practice, work and school, I have no time for frineds, family, or anyone else! Where did all my free hours go? I can't wait till summer when 7 hours of my day are not taken up by school. It's gonna be kick-ass. Anyway... I'm gonna try to get together with each section of pals by this weekend. Joe tomorrow and Friday. Carly/Missa/Aims/Kerri on Saturday... Matt/Brad/Dave/etc possibly saturday afternoon, or whenever I get time to fly by each of their houses. *rolls eyes, groan* I'm soo tired. Even the thought of all this kills me. Night night!

Yep, so Dana's party was fun, even if there was only like... 5 people there besides him, Lou and Steph... I was pretty quiet the whole time, debating whether I wanted to sleep or not, hehe Steph wouldn't let me, even though we couldn't really do much, as it's raining and all that. Yuckers. But, overall, it was not a complete loss. Their addition is almsot completely done, and it looks absolutely fantabulous!! Anyway... I now need to write in my SB.. *shrug* Just something bugging me that I need to get out. Luv ya all!

I went to Elise's party yesterday... I was really worried about how it was going to go, and at one point or another, I even thought about bailing and just being like, Eh, I'm sick, can't go. But, I wasn't sick, and I really do want to get along with these people, if not only for my sake, but for Joe's. I don't want his friends to think I'm a stuck-up bitch, as we all know that I truly am. *grin* At least they shouldn't have to come face-to-face with that nasty fact straight away, Lol Let them slide into it easier. eheh But anyway... I actually had a ton of fun!! And I know I said this when I dealt with Jesse at one point, but agains I am reminded: People are often very different than you think, if you don't know them that well. I was surprised when I realized jsut how nice these people really were. I've been rather sheltered, so far as socialization goes with other people, so now that I've actually gotten out and hung out with friends other than my own very small clique, I'm having a lot of fun!

After that, me, Joe, Katie and Tom all went to that movie, "On Frozen Pond." It sucked sooo bad. It was... incomprehensible. It skipped around EVERYWHERE!!! Me and katie were counting down the minutes to when it would end. Anyway, then all four of us went out to eat at KFC/Taco Bell in Greenville, and... it was good! hehe I was like... sleeping all through everything, though... Was sooo tired! hehe!

I'm heading over to my uncle's house today for his 50th bday... I was thinking of inviting Joe, but I think I'll jsut invite him to my bday partty when they're all there. They're overwhelming anyway, so... overwhelming and in a house you don't know, is usually not a good combo. I don't usually tlak much in Lou's house anyway, so... doubly uncomfortable. *shrug*

Right!! yeah! So, I got a letter back from that farm in NY, and the lady is checking to see whether any of her year-round students is looking for a job, but if there's a slot, then she'd be happy to meet me and see if I'd fit in... I'm excited.