*snickers* I jsut made a whole beautiful post, gave away every single one of my secrets, and spoke out loud my hatreds... And then, in a moment of complete genius, I killed it! LMAO!!!

Well, for brief overview: The Meaning of Life is BS.
I still want Erik. Madly. Reminder to myself: Hang out no more... Forget.
Insanely jealous of Missa.
Isn't that enough secrets for one night? But, I feel better already. And I'm sure in the morning, after everyone reads this and asks me about it, I'll just go shoot myself with rock salt... Till I die. *smiles* Yes, I love late-night convos with my Blogger... Secrets always get out, and in the morning, I feel like I have the worst hangover- with the exception that no amount of medication could possibly make me feel better, though i suppose the way I've been feeling, maybe getting rid of baggage would be the best thing? *shrugs* If you don't like my shriek-its, shoot me. Just don't ask me about them.

I wonder how Matt and Katie made out at the dance last night. I'm sure theywere both fine, katie especially, as Peter was there... Matt didn't sound too happy about that, as I recall, but hey! I am not an excellent judge of character, as the Sultan on Aladdin so obviously was. Anyway... I can't beleive I didn't know what color katie's dress was! Ugh... IDIOT! She showed it to me!! And the only one I can see, in my head, is Missy's maroon one.

Well, anyway... I really wanna make plans for tonight, but for some reason, plans never seem to work out on Saturdays, anymore. Oy... I'm seriously losing this Monopoly game... *grins* I'm so horrible at it... hehe

Yay! I had a fun night! Bought a new sweatshirt, boots, and hair clips! Along with getting the boxers i've been trying to get my hands on for the last couple of weeks. Now I can go climb the rock wall without regrets! Yay! hehe It should be pretty damned funny.

And now I'm a bad kid, huh? *shrugs* Just dig a hole and bury me in it. Kk? Kk. I'm dead tired with nothing left to do... Sleep is looking better and better, Night night!!

Old crushes come back, and spice up your life once again. I can't keep my eyes off, and I wonder how the hell this possibly started. Yep... You heard me. Old crush, reignited once again, as it has for the past year and a half, and I wonder what is up with it...

*sighs* Shot, shot shot... With an AK-47, so there's nothing left to gather up and put back together. *grins* What a pretty mental picture that was... All grey and red and whatnot... *snickers* Anyway...

Back to the whole crush thing. I really hope that he doesn't read this, because he'd probably know exactly who it was... Him! LoL Names are always left blank in this thing, jsut so everyone knows. Talking to him right now on AIM, and everyone would think I'm insane if they knew who it was. Granted, they think I'm insane anyway, but if they knew of this one, they'd prolly laugh. Then they'd think about it, and be like... Well, yeah... that might work! Go Abby! hehe

Anyway, here's teh clues to any and all who read this. Couple inches taller than me, cute, brown hair, acorn-ish, really *grins* with freckles and brown eyes... Really, jsut very cute! hehe Did i mention he's about as built as Erik? Just for Kerri and Meagan! I knew you'd like that, ladies! hehe Anyway... That's it for the clues. You'll get it if you watch me, I know you will!

Yes... Well, I'm a dipshit, proven once again, for all to know and love. Yep... Shoot me, now. Please. At least then I wouldn't ahve to pull moronic stunts like the one I did awhile ago, then lied about, and now have to face up to. *nods* Oh yeah, you who know, know what I'm tlaking about. And, if it wasn't bad in the first place, when i did it, it's even worse now, when it all came out. And I have only one person to thank for all of this woe. Me. Isn't it jsut horrible when you know you should be shot, and the only person you can blame, is yourself?

Now, I should call someone, possibly two someones, tonight, and beg for ever-loving mercy, because I'm a stupid little itch who gets herself into trouble simply for the sheer joy of getting into trouble.... And then does anything she possibly can, to get herself out of it! Oh yeah, baby... Idiot, idiot, idiot!!!!

Now to anyone out there who wishes to help out with this burden I carry, did you ever think that maybe I am so ashamed of my own stupidity and assanine actions, that I want this left to myself? So that I can possibly learn from it (not that my being wrapped up in my own shame has ever helped before... I still do stupid shyt.), and not do it ever again? So, yes. Let me suffer just a weeeeeeee (okay, so a LOT!!!!) bit more, and possibly, with the slightest bit of luck imaginable, I might learn a bit from this experience...

And for an update. No. i do not have a date for the Junior Prom, which is scheduled for May 9th. Countdown.... 106 days to get a date... *rolls eyes* Idiot, Idiot, idiot...

Ooooh! I made it all the way up to the top of the swingy-triangle thing today! It was so much fun! I can't wait until next time... Hmm... I forgot to mention that Dan is out of commission. Looking back at my recent blogs, I cannot beleive I didin't mention that! Well, she's out of work until about March, possibly later. But, in the meantime, she's moving to the barn up near my house, and is getting new shoes. With the second job, I can finally afford the 40 dollar food supplements, and half of the shoeing fees... So, now all I have to do is get my ass in gear and start riding the Bugsy-girl, get my seat a little better, and work on keeping myself confident. *sighs* It'll work, I'm pretty sure. If i can ride Bugsy, I can ride anything, LoL

Anyway... nothing much has been happening in the Abby-life, lately... Haven't hung out with anyone, haven't done anyhting particularly exciting lately. I'm still wondering about the Junior Prom. I need a date, and I refuse to wait until the last minute. So... My options are limited, and my time is running out. You'd think, with it being in May, that I wouldn't have to really worry about it jsut yet, but jsut today, Jess came running up to me and was screaming about how she'd gotten the date of her dreams, etc. etc. *rolls eyes* I love her dearly, but uh... right. This is me we're tlaking about. Just shoot me dead right now, kk? Then I'll have as much of a chance for a date as I would have, if I were alive! LoL *shrieks, rips her hair out* I hate formal dances... Stupid, stupid stupid!!!! *sighs* Stupid...