Right now, I'm listening to Carrie Underwood- same song my mom says SB gaped at me when I sang to earlier. I -love- her voice. It's so rich and full... And a range I LOVE.

I love it when I can sing as good as I used to be able to. My voice has been gone for a while, but when I belted it out tonight, I was just... Excited! I love being able to sing how I want, when I want. hehe

Baby, Just sing sing sing sing sing... Your love won't mean a thing unless you sing sing sing... Thanks, Tricks. I don't think I can tell you jsut how much. Maybe I'm jsut making too much out of it, but damn, boy... Thank you. *Grins*

I gotta make a CD with these songs on it. Just so I can BLAST it when I get back to my stereo. Iggy Pop, Oingo Boingo, Carrie, Travis, Dude... My roomies are going to HATE me. My NEIGHBORS are going to hate me. KC and the Sunshine Band, There're a few others... hehe

Have fun tonight, y'al... Be careful, m'kay??

And SB... Dude, we definitely need to do today more often. Though I spent quite a large sum of money, I had SOOOOOO much fun doing it, and I got such cool stuff!! I seriously cannot WAIT to wear my new fishnets!!! ACK!!! hahah Or go through my new borsey book... Ooh la la! Or put up my fishy HOOKS!! eep! there's just so much I want to do! including take a shower so I can try out all ym new lotion and shampoo and body wash stuff!! ACK! LoL

Ya know what? It feels good to have my feet back on level ground. Real good. I don't know what did it. I think R-Matt had a lot to do with it, pounding into my head that I've been behaving atrociously; I think he was the one who really brought me out of this really bad cycle I'd slipped into. Thanks. Though I will probably never speak to him except when absoltly necessary, I'll give him credit for being the catalyst.

And I really need to thank all my friends for their support and love.. You know who you are. Thank you roomies for dealing with my BS and just... not killing me. *Grins* I can't wait to figure out how I'm going to thank you... hehe

Well, the game is over and I lost. A lot. I'm almsot willign to say more than te other person involved. No... I did lose more than them. And it sucks. Neihter of us should have lost anything. *Rolls eyes* Ya know what? Fuck it.

BTW... I think people not involved, in ANY way, should back the hell off, and quit being gossip-mongers. As in.. Old fish-wives, standing around the well, gossiping with any- and every- one. The only person who's business it is, is cool. The rest of you? Go away. Get a life. Rot in hell. *Sweet smile* You know who you are, and I hope you know how, at this moment, serious I am. Mind your own damned business.

On a brighter note, I got a flat tire and ruined a rim yesterday, so... yeah. LoL Then got SHIT when I tried to ask Josh for an expert opinion, and... yeah. It just seems like this year is going to suck.

On hte brigh side, I did get an 84 on my Vector-bornes disease class, and... Got to have a great dinner with the parentals, not to mention seeing my kid bro and Miss Panda! Yay! hehe I hate it when I'm put into a position where I can't do anyhting but cry, and he knows me so fucking well, he just hands me a tissue and sits there telling to just... do it, LoL I swear, there are a few people in this life who know me so well, I cannot get away with anyhting. *shakes head* Know me toooo well, Lol

Alright... I'm out. Bedtime. Adios.

Okay... Had a -great- frieking time last night. There were a few rough spots, but overall, it was a hit! I think me and Mary were the only ones who went home alone, which was jsut fine with me! haha I can't even imagine how you go about doing that!! Ack!

Anyway... It was a great time. Drank before we got in the limo- a couple of us a bit too much, but.. whatever. Like usual, I was Mama Abby, making sure nothing got killed, no one gt hurt, etc. etc. I was tipsy (possibly even more than that, but due to awesome genes, I can still think and react pretty easily), but more sober, or at least acted more sober, than the rest of the crew... Minus Laura. Who was my buuuuuddy for the night. haha

My outfit was DARLING! White linen pants with a brown satinesque top, matching sandals... So cute! hehe We have tons of pictures, most of which came out horribly due to laura being unable to aim or correctly tell me when she's going to press the button... haha But it's all good- there were at least a few cute ones, so whenever she gets home today, I will definitely have to steal them!! YAYA!!!

Hmm... What else? Oh yes. I gave a boy my phone number (proof I was -entirely- right in the head), and he left me a cute message, but... No. LoL I'm not quite sure what to do if he calls... Probably just not answer. Maybe I'll ask Cat, see what he says, because... Cat's the man. haha

PS. Not a booty-call, more of a... "Dear-God-I'm-freezing-and-my-door-won't-close-pleaase-warm-me-up" beg. Instead... Chicken soup and a good car mag? Mmm... I think that may be my good deed of the day- and then possibly an equally ouch-ish one attached. But that's wavering on the fence. I need food. One sec... FOOD!!

Alright, I got my oatmeal. Can i jsut say how crazy my body/brain is? I mean... If I got to bed at 10, I'm up at 9. If I go to bed at 3:30, say, I get up at 7:30. haha How F'ed up is that?! Mm... I love oatmeal. It'll stop these crazy little shaky things I got going on. Geez... I can't even tell you how much alcohol I consumed last ngiht. I had a HUGE bowl of pasta before, though, because I knew I was going to. I know I had at -least- 4 shots of rum... I poured them myself, but then I got handed TONS of shit in the limo... So... I'd guess at least another couple of shots... Oy. Considering I'm three-shot shorty, I'm thinking that's prolly not good. BUt that pasta did some good... I handled it okay.

God, this oatmeal is sooo good.

My receiver is NOT fucked up. Can I jsut tell you how frieking excited I am about that? It's like... amazing. I can't wait to call my mommy and tell her. I'm sooo excited. I kissed it. haha That's how excited I was.

Alright...homework time.