So, I didn't even want to write, at all. I've got so much pent-up irritation, I'm not sure what I want to do about it. Well, actually, I know what I want to do about it, but it's really hard to do. I've got 2 weeks exactly before i move out, and well... I don't want to kill any friendships before I lose my car, my room, and any pieces that would allow me to revive it. Damn. I hate being stuck between a rock and a hard place.

I was talking to Crystal about how I htink my ADD is jsut a self-made physical manifestation of the apparent inability to think, which is actually just a facade for the overuse of analytical thought, after the fact. Oh yeah. I will usually appear to not use my brain for the whole time you're tlaking to me, but in fact, I'm using only a bit of it because I'm recording everything you say for afterward, where I'll go over every single movement, expression, word, tone, inflection, everything, until I get a reasonable conclusion as to why you said what you said, why you were hiding what you were really trying to say, and what, exactly, you were really trying to say. Make sense? Well...

When I get stressed, or put in a stressful situation, the half of my brain actually being used is trying to make up for the other half that is busy recording, and so... I act like a total nut. Nucking futs, huh? heh

Anyway... what was going on last night was that, I was still overanalyzing what had happened on Wednesday, which apparently, the culprit didn't even remember (I was happy for that small reprieve!) , and so... had no idea why I was being such a bitch.

Wednesday, some stuff was said that definitely shouldn't have been, that confused the hell out of me, and pissed me off because it made me feel all confused and sad and whatnot.

Anyway... so what I need to do about it is... *think* See how the blocks fall, talk to the stuff-sayer, and just forget it.

So much easier said than done... heh

Well, there's a lot to catch up on. Over the weekend, the charter's were nil, so.. I had plenty of time to play around!! So... Friday night, Crystal, Nick and I all went out, and drove around until around 3 in the morning. When we all finally got backto where we were sleeping, it was like, 3:30, 4ish and I was so tired, I was dead asleep when my head hit the pillow. (More on that in the SB.. Woot woot!) It was really funny the next morning when Crystal and I attempted to make pancakces with choco chips- they were more like chocolate with a bit of batter stuck in jsut so we could call them pancakes. The whole bag of chips?! Oh hell, why not!?! LoL There was a bit of misunderstanding of chip-pouring, LoL They tasted very... chocolatey, though. heh Oh yeah... It was about 2 in the afternoon, so it wasn't really breakfast, more like slunch, heh

Saturday, I ran around like a maniac tring to get everything done for Sunday, so I never made it to Joe's party... Poop. :( But, I did drive around and have a shitload of fun waiting for Nick and Crystal- "What is this, Gangsta Abby?!" Lmao. Just because I'm listening to some hip-hop/rap, does not make me black, jsut culturally open-minded. Frell off... :)

Sunday, I slept late, and went to birthday parties i the afternoon... Woot woot for lack of plans on Saturday. LoL That woulda sucked big time... heh Then i went to work and it was so boring, me and Chad played pitch for like and hour, while no one was in the store!!! Then his dad was yelling at him becuase he didn't invite me to go swimming or some such nonsense... I get that kid in such trouble with his parental!! lmao Wicked funny!! heh I love Chad... MUAH!

Ummm... Monday? Monday I did nothing. Then iWent to a Hockey game that SB's team lost... :(* << Look!! It's That supermodel with the movable MOLE!!! HAH Cindy Crawford! heh

Uh... Yesterday, I went to Brewed with all the girls, as well as Dave (ala's bf) and Aims and Brian!! I was so excited!!! I hadn't seen them all summer, and all of a sudden, I stopped by their house and they were home!! I felt kinda bad for SB, though.. I dragged her everywhere and made her so uncomfortable... :( Sorry, hun... I love you!!!

You know, I really did have something serious to say on ehre, but this update is long enough, so screw it. Later!! Woot woot! gotta figure out what's happening tonight... Not even sure, LoL