Whoa... Ever had that feeling where the minutes are ticking by like hours, the seconds like minutes? Then, all of a sudden, something happens and the time is zipping by, until you don't know where it's all gone? Well... I think I'm having a week like that. Christmas was dragging through... Blah... Until Christmas Eve, and then it was like... Phew! Where'd the time go? And then, Christmas Day, I was jsut kind of blah-ing again, enjoying myself, but not really having a ton of fun... then Zooom! At the basiles... It's a weird world. I swear.

Anyway... I have this feeling like soemthing bad's going to happen. Maybe I'm just hungry. I don't think so. maybe. Eh... no. I dunno. Maybe I'm sick? Nahh.. nothing but my stomache's acting up. The hell... What's wrong with me? Oh wait... I know. I've come to the conclusiong that 7/8of the paycheck I made this week is going towards a membership to a YMCA... I'm not sure which one,though... *shrugs* whatever! LoL But, I need to get involved wiht something, whether it be swimming, running, aerobics, whatever! I jsut need to do something... I hate feeling like a slug... And besides, I don't fit into my nice jeans anymore... LoL Great holidays... hehe (Lying, I fit, but jsut barely. But I hate holding my breeath for long periods. Gives my face a bluish kind of tint. Ugh!) I'm going to a barn tomorrow to check out what may become my new project, which would save me from having to go to the Y... Riding in echange for stalls. Hell... I used to love doing stalls in the summer... I hate the cold, but hey... riding? Hmm... Free riding? LoL And I was in such good shape then... granted, clean ten stalls, ride 2 horses, then walk a mile to work my ass off some more? No shyt I was in good shape! Lol That was one thing Clarissa was good for... Keeping my butt in shape... hehe

LMAO... The good old days. I can't wait till track starts up. Then someone will make me work... I wonder why no one realizes this... I really do want to be muscular and all that jazz, I mean GOD!!! Why do you think that, with even a hint of authority in your voice, I'm up and running? Geez Louise!!!

Anyway... Enough of me whinign about how fat I am... LoL I'm gonna have fun tomorrow!! YEEEAH!

Whoa... weird dream. I was walking up and down 102, and I lost track of what street I wanted and ended up by Gator's, becuase I ccouldn't see, ebuase these big trucks were in my way. So, when I made it to Gator's I started abck, because it wouldn't be easier to walk from Gator's than, say, East Ave, to my house. So, I kept walking, and I finally saw the street I wanted, but when I took it, I ended up in this weird rendition of Villare Retirements COmmunities... More like Elmhurst than Waterman Lake... and whoa. It was scary. Nothing was done, so these people were filing in and nothing was put out, so while I was rushing aroudnf or plates, I was getting yelled at for not getting food, etc... It was jsut bad. And finally, it wasn't even my day to work!! I was supposed to work on Saturday! ACK! And then my alarm clock went off, and I woke up. Thank God.

So, yesterday turned out to be a wicked lot more fun than I thought it would. Yay for friends! heh Well, first off, I opened gifts... So much good stuff, but at the top of the priority list was the annual Carbon Abbanda picture, which will be coming out soon! hehe Oh man... If you only knew! So, I got a lot of cool stuff between my paretns and relatives, including neato socks, a kick-ass shirt "Save a horse, ride a cowboy." LMAO!!! from my ever-hilarious cousin Steph, and a really good pair of swimming goggles... I CAN SEE!~!!! maybe now I can learn how to breathe, yes? heh

After that, I went to Juice's to give him his gift... Now, don't ask me how it happened, but I spent 2 hours at his house, and let me tell you, I thought I 'd stayed there for maybe an hour...And i don't think he hates me as much now... He might even be able to stand me. How interesting, LoL!

After that, I went home and hung out for a bit until Christine called and asked me if I wanted to do soemthing. I immediately jumped at the idea, so she came over, gave me a haircut then straightened my hair, which, may I add, is still straight. Holy Crap! Then, we went over to TCapp's, where Domini was dying of boredom, and Chris, Juice, TCapp, and DCaff were all playing poker. So, me and Christine livened up the party a bit, then to get it going even more, we added Kim and Bucci into the mix. Now -that- was off the hook! lmao.. Not really, but still fun! hehe

So, then i went home and had a weird dream, and got up at 7:15 to get my bro to community service... Sucks to be a big sister... *fall over dead* Welcome to my world...

Okay... Highly insecure right now... ready to just... Crawl in a corner and blink at everyhting... I hate WINTER!!! And it only gets worse from here... Can't wait till track season. Better yet, can't wait until I can find a distraction... No.. actually, I really don't want a distraction... Just.. some fun. Yeah. Some fun... *insane ramblings of a crazed mind*

I'm really tired... Where's my big bro when I really need him? Oh wait... playing Madden Online! ACK!

1. Are you male or female?



2. Describe Yourself



3. How do you feel about others?



4. Describe your current/ideal boyfriend/girlfriend/spouse:



5. What would you rather be doing?



6. Describe where you live.



7. Describe how you love:



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Okay... I have no idea what the deal is with Linds anymore... i think I screwed up big time yesterday... Oops? And it's not even what's down there... In fact, my stupidity amazes even me... Now what was going on in my head?! Oh wait... Nothing? yeah, that seems to be the norm nowadays! Dah! *shakes ehad* So, last night, I got the best christmas presents from the girls... They are all so cool! SB, thank you so much for that wicked cute purse!!! I am using it right now... well, now -right- now, but you get my drift! Chrisitne... Those gloves? hehe... So much mischief... Katie, Oh man... Panera!!! Panera!!! hehe Now, Ala, I know youtink I'm hot... But seriously! I thought that was our little secret!! God... Keep it in your pants, girl!!! *smirk* Luv ya!

Christmas, huh? I have so much to be thankful for, I don't know where to start. I know all my friends have a big part in making me as happy as I am today, the Original Crew as well as The Brewed Crew... Heh. I have the Smithfield peeps to thank, you guys were and are awesome people... I hope you know I luv you still! Hmm... Now, to find something to do today. heh. Yeah...

Oh man... I got Richie's CD, and it's wicked good. I had to drop by his house yesterday to grab one... me and katie, the dynamic duo, are back. Watch out, Burrillville! heh

Why is my dog spazzing out... again?

Linds is freaking out at me for this comment I made on Ben's blogger... lmao How dumb can life get? I mean, really... Hw much i it going to matter in a year? There is so much other shyt that someone could be frieking out about... Like, Saddam Hussein's capture... Televise it... I want to hear what he says. *growl* There is so much I could say and really get off my chest, but for respect and memories, I leave it. I think it's time that instead of trying to be friends like we used to be, we should jsut... chill. Because obviously, I'm sick of the drama, the pussy-footing, skirting around the truth, and the frustration. That's all there is. Love it, leave it. Maybe that'll be my life motto.

New Years... Maybe I do want to drink... Hell, shouldn't I at least be able to say that I drank once in my high-school life? ugh... I don't want to drink. I don't even like the smell of alcohol... and what the hell's the point? There would be none unless I got dead roaring drunk... and then who knows what I would do? Oooph... Not even worth thinking about... Bright Night, here I come! heh

So, I'm going to church. I haven't been to church in eons. Well, since first communion, so... I don't know, 10 years or so? LoL OMG... I can say that I haven't been to something in a decade... Holy shyt, I'm getting old. Granted, I could say stuff like that since I was ten, but god... I am serious right now. Oof. A kick in the gut. LoL