Habits are hard to break. I've come to this conclusion. they jsut are. I feel so... shallow. It appears that I have nothing good to say until something drastic happens, in which case I get all mopey and blah and haqve PLENTY to say... All about the same thing. Me.
Narcissism at extremes, right? LoL
I've decided that I want a phone number. You can't run around doing stupid things if I can't even have a phone number. I mean, waht happens if you DIE, for crying out loud? How would I ever know? No one would know to come on and TELL me! So... this is my decision. Give me a number, or I refuse to... yeah, that's a line of crap if I've ever smelled it. I won't NOT ever speak to you again. I mean, I've been cool with you since I was what, 14? 15? LoL Dude, that's probably one of my longest running friendships so far. Seriously. How can I jsut throw that away, even if you are one of the most... I don't know. Ridiculously amusing people I've ever met. And honestly, I care for you, man. I refuse to get all weepy on here, but if something happened to you and WE (you know who the other is) were left in the dark for days, months, years on end, I might be inclined to beat the SHIT out of you when we finally met up in heaven. Got it? Good.
And trust me, we are going to Heaven. I have not paid all those bribes to slide my way straight to Hell, anyway! LoL
Oooh la la! Miss Breeze is not quite the pretty pretty pony she appears to be. I had a couple tricks pulled on me today- nothing to the extent that the Psycho Queen (A nickname I made up, may I jsut remind you, you delusional idiot.) would try... As in, there was nooooo galloping straight towards and tree and stopping dead, trying to propel said rider (ME!) headfirst into said tree. No stomping, whirluing, bucking, rearing fits because I wouldn't let her run full gallop down a road known for its DUMPTRUCKS and HOLES!!! LoL And no leaping, all four feet in the air, sideways down the side of an enclosed area.
I'm jsut having waaay too much fun reliving my glory days. I',m sorry... I'll quit reminiscing and stay on track. Breeze was... interesting. Obedient to the point where you want to puke, but then... there's a trick! And it's like, Hmm... I suppose I could pay attention to you for a couple more minute because... you're kinda interesting again... haha
It was not worth coming down tonight, for reasons said and unsaid, though those unsaid need not be spoken, and therefore shall lay hidden in the journal that remains unseen. Mwuahah ... have I got you confused yet? LoL
Beyond that... I am not done with homework. Not even close, actually... I kinda... forgot. LoL Oops? hehe
Saturday, March 18, 2006
Friday, March 17, 2006
Awww... Pat the Black Arab is... wonderful! LoL I think he's going to be my new boy, haha He's soooo good. I don't know why they called him a brat- he's so frieking SMART! Very sure-footed, picks his own way down the trail, never misses a beat- occasionally breaks into a trot when you least expect it (AKA, going downhill amidst slippery shale, through a foot-deep puddle so you're SPRAYED, etc. etc.), but what do you expect- perfect??
Had a rgeat time, spent a few hours getting hit in the face by trees, but overall a pleasant time.
Makes me miss Dan, but... What kind of person actually LIKES to ride a holy terror?? Lmao *jumps up and down, waving hand* ME!!1 Me!!! ME!!!
Had a rgeat time, spent a few hours getting hit in the face by trees, but overall a pleasant time.
Makes me miss Dan, but... What kind of person actually LIKES to ride a holy terror?? Lmao *jumps up and down, waving hand* ME!!1 Me!!! ME!!!
Awww... Pat the Black Arab is... wonderful! LoL I think he's going to be my new boy, haha He's soooo good. I don't know why they called him a brat- he's so frieking SMART! Very sure-footed, picks his own way down the trail, never misses a beat- occasionally breaks into a trot when you least expect it (AKA, going downhill amidst slippery shale, through a foot-deep puddle so you're SPRAYED, etc. etc.), but what do you expect- perfect??
Had a rgeat time, spent a few hours getting hit in the face by trees, but overall a pleasant time.
Makes me miss Dan, but... What kind of person actually LIKES to ride a holy terror?? Lmao *jumps up and down, waving hand* ME!!1 Me!!! ME!!!
Had a rgeat time, spent a few hours getting hit in the face by trees, but overall a pleasant time.
Makes me miss Dan, but... What kind of person actually LIKES to ride a holy terror?? Lmao *jumps up and down, waving hand* ME!!1 Me!!! ME!!!
Sometimes, I wonder if you're delusional. Or maybe just... I don't know, an asshole. But I've come to the conclusion that you're uninformed and careless.
So, here's all I'm going to say. I'm over it. You're happy, I'm happy, we're both happy with our situations. Just quit -causing- drama, in making OUR friends decide between us, and everything will be cool. I promise I won't bite, claw, maim, or in other words be the cause of harm to Miss Alli(sp?), unless provoked- by either of you.
I went RIDING!!! it was sooooo much fun! I got to ride this rpetty little mare named Breeze, who just... bobbled along the trails happy as a clam, and I can't wait to explore. haha Today I'm heading down in about... 20 minutes to hop on Pat, the black devil. I'm sure we're going to have LOTS of fun.
the best news, though totally irrelevant, is that he's building extra stalls and... *Blink, sideways look, Blink* Maybe I can bring a pony. Now, Crystal, if you're reading this, are you thinking what I'm thinking? After the terror subsides, I'm sure you know what I'm talking about... Mwuahaha!!
Andrew!! I'm so excited about your new guitar!! I can't wait to hear it, I hope you're bringing it back down to the dorms, and if not, then I may have to find my way back through Portsmouth to hear you play it! haha Wouldn't that be hilarious? Lol I'm sure I could make it, though... Just may take me a qhile
Last night was... interesting. Me and Linds got blown off by a couple of idiots, sorry Linds... And ended up down in Narragansett, stopping first at my place to chill with Dave, Kev, another Dave, Kris P, Em, and Kate. It was funny just chilling with them as they played Monopoly. I think kate's still wary around me, but I honestly can't blame her. She's seen my temper and knows my fickle moods better than most anyone. I jsut don't think she realizes I've hit my plateau. I'm good. truly. The dave kid was cuteish, I wish I could've seen how tall he was- I'm figuring not tall enough, but.. Meh, it could happen, right?
Then we headed to Josh's, where I found myself called, "Budnick! Get up here!!" and gaped at and laughed about in surprise when I showed up instead, haha There, we hung with Josh, James, Beth, and Biggs, who were all jsut chilling out watching TV, waiting for Matt to show up to escort them to a party. haha Which, by the way, I was not allowed to go to. Permission DENIED. LoL though I will note for posterity that it was fine by me. I wouldn't have asked if I hadn't been prepared to hear a negative answer. (Expecting it, more likely. haha)
I wish Linds had had more fun, but she was just not feeling right, so... who really wants to be fun and cool when you're jsut not feeling like yourself? I know I would rather just... stay home and sleep, probably. LoL
You guys are so cute, I don't know how to thank you enough. Beth, it was so good to see you- lunch date, you, me, food! YEAH!!! James, you are the Bomb! LoL And Biggs, waht more can I say? You ARE the big spoon. hahah
Dude, just don't ask them to choose. I'm cool. And if there comes a time when I'm not, I know where the door is. But asking our friends to choose between us? Definitely not cool. Chill out, will ya?
Alright, I'm off to the BARRRRRRRN! Gonna get my ass kicked by a pretty-prancing ponnnnnyyy!! SWEET! haha MUAH to you all. haha
So, here's all I'm going to say. I'm over it. You're happy, I'm happy, we're both happy with our situations. Just quit -causing- drama, in making OUR friends decide between us, and everything will be cool. I promise I won't bite, claw, maim, or in other words be the cause of harm to Miss Alli(sp?), unless provoked- by either of you.
I went RIDING!!! it was sooooo much fun! I got to ride this rpetty little mare named Breeze, who just... bobbled along the trails happy as a clam, and I can't wait to explore. haha Today I'm heading down in about... 20 minutes to hop on Pat, the black devil. I'm sure we're going to have LOTS of fun.
the best news, though totally irrelevant, is that he's building extra stalls and... *Blink, sideways look, Blink* Maybe I can bring a pony. Now, Crystal, if you're reading this, are you thinking what I'm thinking? After the terror subsides, I'm sure you know what I'm talking about... Mwuahaha!!
Andrew!! I'm so excited about your new guitar!! I can't wait to hear it, I hope you're bringing it back down to the dorms, and if not, then I may have to find my way back through Portsmouth to hear you play it! haha Wouldn't that be hilarious? Lol I'm sure I could make it, though... Just may take me a qhile
Last night was... interesting. Me and Linds got blown off by a couple of idiots, sorry Linds... And ended up down in Narragansett, stopping first at my place to chill with Dave, Kev, another Dave, Kris P, Em, and Kate. It was funny just chilling with them as they played Monopoly. I think kate's still wary around me, but I honestly can't blame her. She's seen my temper and knows my fickle moods better than most anyone. I jsut don't think she realizes I've hit my plateau. I'm good. truly. The dave kid was cuteish, I wish I could've seen how tall he was- I'm figuring not tall enough, but.. Meh, it could happen, right?
Then we headed to Josh's, where I found myself called, "Budnick! Get up here!!" and gaped at and laughed about in surprise when I showed up instead, haha There, we hung with Josh, James, Beth, and Biggs, who were all jsut chilling out watching TV, waiting for Matt to show up to escort them to a party. haha Which, by the way, I was not allowed to go to. Permission DENIED. LoL though I will note for posterity that it was fine by me. I wouldn't have asked if I hadn't been prepared to hear a negative answer. (Expecting it, more likely. haha)
I wish Linds had had more fun, but she was just not feeling right, so... who really wants to be fun and cool when you're jsut not feeling like yourself? I know I would rather just... stay home and sleep, probably. LoL
You guys are so cute, I don't know how to thank you enough. Beth, it was so good to see you- lunch date, you, me, food! YEAH!!! James, you are the Bomb! LoL And Biggs, waht more can I say? You ARE the big spoon. hahah
Dude, just don't ask them to choose. I'm cool. And if there comes a time when I'm not, I know where the door is. But asking our friends to choose between us? Definitely not cool. Chill out, will ya?
Alright, I'm off to the BARRRRRRRN! Gonna get my ass kicked by a pretty-prancing ponnnnnyyy!! SWEET! haha MUAH to you all. haha
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
Okay, I'll admit it. I am the biggest wuss ever. Not only am I petrified of doctors, dentists, psychiatrists, couselors, and acupuncturists, I fear sad endings.
Earlier today, I was heading to a new dentist (after making my mom take the day off so she could come with me), and though the conversation started jokingly, I sooon found myself bawling through forced laughter at the thought of having my wisdom teeth pulled. Mind you, we weren't even halfway -there- yet. LoL
By the time we got the dentist, I was at least not crying any longer, though my face was still kinda blotchy from the initial tear-attack.
She was very nice. Not once did she rip apart my gums like the old hygeinists, or take out my tongue with whatever instrument of torture seemed right for that moment. No... It was quite fine. That is, until she came about to the second appointment I needed to have- wisdom teeth removal.
Yeah, you guessed it. I sobbed again. I mean, have you ever had a cavity drilled before the anesthetic kicked in? I have. It's not fun, and I've had a deep-seated fear of anything dentist and needleish since.
At the very thought, I'm crying again. I hate dentists, I scoot over and off tables when the doctor comes at me with shots (My dad has to come with me on those days- to hold me on the table), I BAWLED when they thought I'd never ride again, I screamd when this crazy acupuncturist lady stabbed me, and... I'm coming to the conclusion that I'd rather die of gingivitis than ever deal with my wisdom teeth or anyting of the sort.
On a brither note, if you could call it brigher, I read Marley and Me tonight- finished it, really. It's a great book. Incredible. My dad thought I was insane, I laughed so much through the first half. I thought my ribs were going to bust apart during the first half. Then, as the book went on, I began to fear the unhappy ending that becomes of all life.
Sure enough, 40-something pages later, I was crying. Quietly. Like I usually do. No loud sobs, no deep breaths, just blue eyes shiny with tears getting ready to flow swiftly and silently down pale, red-blotched cheeks. Marley the Dog had died.
I'm sorry if I ruined the ending, but like I said, every life comes to an end... Expect it.
Earlier today, I was heading to a new dentist (after making my mom take the day off so she could come with me), and though the conversation started jokingly, I sooon found myself bawling through forced laughter at the thought of having my wisdom teeth pulled. Mind you, we weren't even halfway -there- yet. LoL
By the time we got the dentist, I was at least not crying any longer, though my face was still kinda blotchy from the initial tear-attack.
She was very nice. Not once did she rip apart my gums like the old hygeinists, or take out my tongue with whatever instrument of torture seemed right for that moment. No... It was quite fine. That is, until she came about to the second appointment I needed to have- wisdom teeth removal.
Yeah, you guessed it. I sobbed again. I mean, have you ever had a cavity drilled before the anesthetic kicked in? I have. It's not fun, and I've had a deep-seated fear of anything dentist and needleish since.
At the very thought, I'm crying again. I hate dentists, I scoot over and off tables when the doctor comes at me with shots (My dad has to come with me on those days- to hold me on the table), I BAWLED when they thought I'd never ride again, I screamd when this crazy acupuncturist lady stabbed me, and... I'm coming to the conclusion that I'd rather die of gingivitis than ever deal with my wisdom teeth or anyting of the sort.
On a brither note, if you could call it brigher, I read Marley and Me tonight- finished it, really. It's a great book. Incredible. My dad thought I was insane, I laughed so much through the first half. I thought my ribs were going to bust apart during the first half. Then, as the book went on, I began to fear the unhappy ending that becomes of all life.
Sure enough, 40-something pages later, I was crying. Quietly. Like I usually do. No loud sobs, no deep breaths, just blue eyes shiny with tears getting ready to flow swiftly and silently down pale, red-blotched cheeks. Marley the Dog had died.
I'm sorry if I ruined the ending, but like I said, every life comes to an end... Expect it.