I am procrastinating... Though it has been a very productive night, I must say. I figure it's okay for a break after writing all the painful letters and getting Latin done... And sending in my faulty Chem lab... LoL
Next will either be Webass or the Pre-Lab due today that I simply could not understand. Icky.

I'm sooo... icky. I jsut don't feel right. I'm disgusted with myself that I'm currently failing Latin and Physics, that I can't seem to get ahead of my work, and Chemistry makes me fail at life. Maybe I should stop procrastinating and get back to work, huh? Way to make your own problems, Abbs... Way to go.

I'm really upset in that listless, quietly unsmiling kind of way that I get whenever something's really bothering me and I jsut.. hate it. I know it's good for him to leave, no questions. I think it's more my mom's message that got me so down, and not so much my brother leaving, though that's got me in a hole, too.. I'm gonna miss the brat.

"Oh, I figured you'd want to know... They called today and your brother's going in tomorrow, but don't bother coming home for dinner, it's no big deal. Nana and Grampa will be over, but you shouldn't rush home or anything. I just thought you'd want to know. If you want to say goodbye, leave him a message or something... " - WTF? thanks for making me feel like I don't matter, Mom... Do you think I don't care? Do you think that I'm going to relinquish my brother for 6 months without saying goodbye face to face? Obviously you have no idea what's going on in my head. Just the fact that you ever thought it, nevermind left me a message stating it, makes me cry. WTF were you thinking? Oh, right... Grief that your son is leaving. Yeah. Thanks. I'm absolutely cold about it, no feelings at all. Right. Whatever.

Okay now that I'm back in a horrible mood without any latin at all to soothe me, I'm going back to work. A perfect mood for Chem and Physics.