Do you miss me? Hah. I bet.
I miss the fun we had, I miss the good times.
I do not miss the anxiety, the nerves.
I miss the people I hung out with,
I wish I could again.

So what is that all about? Well, I was thinking today. And I feel better, knowing that at least, if at the very least, no one really reads this thing, I can put what I think more about, in it. And to that, I say, "Boojyah!" So anyway... Back to the thinking part. What that above is all about, is I beleive what goes through everyone's heads after a relationship (can you tell what went through my mind, first? LoL). The reason why people are so pathetic after a relationship or special time, me included in that category, is maybe not that they miss the person or event so much, but that they miss the memories, the good times, and that carries over into missing that whole time period.

Not to say that you don't actually miss the person (I give up. I quit trying to rationalize this conversation with myself. I know what I'm thinking about, and I jsut can't keep up this useless facade of neutrality.), but I do believe that the saying, "Absence makes the heart grow fonder," is mroe true than most anyone gives it credit for. *shrug* That's what came up while I was driving in my car, lost on Orange St., listening to some radio song. And I realized something. I do miss Joe, I wasn't lying when I told him that. But, if I could stay frineds, and jsut keep hanging out with him like I used to, it would be almsot as good. I'd miss the intimacy, but... you can't ahve everything in this world, all the time, huh?

Like, when people break up, bonds are cut, ties severed, and it seems that people, instead of using what they had to grow stronger, make more frineds, keep their spirits, instead, they shrink within themselves, push others away, and overall, jsut lose themselves. Maybe some people have to do that to recover. I've done it in the past, I know. But, why? Are you afraid? What of? Afraid you might turn to liking that person again? Would that be so horrible? Or... Are you merely concentrating on their bad qualities, be they annoying, stupid, humorless, or ugly, overlooking their better qualities? And therefore making them seem worse than they are?

Truly, It makes me wonder, because I know how I react to certain circumstances, but why only pull from your own experiences? Why not ask someone about them? But, these are kind of touchy, personal questions to ask, so I leave them in there, hoping someone will IM me, or do something that would make me udnerstand better why people do what they do. *shrug* Just me... Being me. Curiouser and curiouser.

I'm done now. People, please do not think less of me because of my obsessiveness. It will be over in a few months. I jsut won't post much, hehe.

BTW... Great apsta party Ala, It was frieking INSANE!!! Ms. D's face when she saw Tina!!!! LMAO!! That look is priceless. "The bet for Jess Dubey... 2 dollah. A bowl of pasta... 50 cents. Ms. D's face when hse sees her worst student waiitng for her at the door... Priceless." I can see it now, LoL AImee, What a great ride we had!! I think we should go again!! hehe i went after the concert... I found quite a few horse farms, lmao. Great concert!! hehe Wow, ya know, I actually ahd a very busy day today, now that I think about it. *nod* Hottness!! hehe Night all! Bio calls... Damn you to formalin, Mr. Auld!