Want to hear something sick? I'm not sure whether to laugh, cry, or jsut fall down asleep right now. Laughing would be completely inappropriate, considering the sircumstances, but crying just seems so... final. falling asleep, well, I think I may do that no matter what I choose.

So, yeah... I girl I knew died today, the 6th this year from B-ville. Holy shit. That's averaging out to just less than 1 a month. I've known her all my life!!! I sat with her on the bus for 3 years!! My God, how do you respond when someone tells you something like that? Well, evidently, my mom thought the best place to tell me was at work, while I had someone in front of me... Talk about a freeze-button. And then!!! And then!!! She goes outside with Chad's dad and while we're locking up, starts talking about the accident with Josh and JR. Like I want to hear that bullshit... *shake*

Like I said, I'm really really shook up, and I can't think of anyhting except sleeping, but at the same time, i feel guilty because I can't think of anything else.

 
I have a world on my shoulders,
It's sneaking up on me.
Pounce!

It's got me.

Pushing,
Pulling,
suffocating me.

For all that I do,
It won't weigh less,
How do I stop?