I miss my friends. I feel like I don't have any left... What with being out of state, in school, or with a boy/girlfriend, I am so utterly left out. I hate having nothing to do, it drives me up the WALL!! I get so bored, and finally resort to jsut sleeping or something equally useless and unneeded. I could take a hike, but it would be so much more fun with Crystal and the two dogs, jsut talking about nothing like we used to do. Or driving around taking pictures with Lindsey (and Crystal, heh), or just... driving and talking with Cat. Hell, playing volleyball at a get-together at Carolyn's house, laughin with people I'm not sure like me, if better than staying home alone for 6 hours at a time. I can only take the dogs for so many walks before we all start to hurt.

Can I jsut say that I really miss my friends? SB, where'd you go? It seems like you got sucked under by all the glam BS that high school seems to deem fashionable. I miss you, girl. Ala, you're busy, another one with a boytoy and a busy schedule. But, jsut so you know, I miss you, too. And the crazy, crazy ideas you come up with. I really jsut miss everyone who I used to count on and lean on and listen to and laugh at and cause tons of mischief with or on, because I feel like you all jsut... went away, leaving me to choke in your dust. I'm probably being wicked melodramatic, and you probably feel the same way, because I hardly speak to you when I'm away, but I hope this summer is different than it was over vacation. If I have to fill my time with the barn and boat and Lil G, I hope I get to see you in equal amounts... Or it's going to be unbearable... Just the thought brings me to tears. What happened? Or maybe nothing happened, and we're all just... different. I miss you guys, all of you. But high school's over, I know. Meh... it's okay. I just... I jsut got overwhelmed by an urge to reach out and hug you, but you're not here.

I hope you come back, at least to wave goodbye...

Okay... now the tears are pouring. Dumb sentimental fool. Say it. I know you want to.