I have changed. And it's not for the better. I whine and I pout and I whine some more. I am the person I hate. haha Is that not a whine in itself? LoL

Hung out with Cat last night, and realized just how much I've changed. It's like a wall, closing out anything and everyone. No one goes in, no one comes out. YAY!!! Willy Wonka is out today! WOOT!

I was trying to be happy- I mean, I really was happy. I was chattering up a storm, and giggling, smiling, the works. Just happy to be alive, really. I suppose funerals will cause 180 extremes in people- crazy happy or unbearably depressed. I was crazy happy. But unfortunately, I am with the kid who, whenever I fall silent for the slightest moment, brought to wherever place it is I go that may not be sunny and bright with the flowers singing and the trees dancing in the background, knows me well enough to prod.

Meh... We left it off that he's unreliable, and I don't call him when I'm in trouble anymore because of it. He listened to the fabio story and I thought he was going to kill me for -not- calling him and making him help me out. But honestly... I don't feel like I can. It's not really a friendship anymore- it's more a sad melancholy conclusion that neither of us really wants to believe. *Blink* Or maybe I'm jsut whining again because he left saying I'm Sorry, and I let him go without looking back. mmmm... Gtg. 6 Flags time.

I jsut needed to capture this feeling before I got all crazy wild today on Batman... YEAH!!!!