Well, I'm a little bit... no, let's reword that... a LOT bit depressed right now.

It's almost that time of the month so... that prolly has a lot to do with it, but I've been here for a couple weeks, so maybe not. I swear, I go to bed nasty and wake up crying. I can't seem to get anything to work out, no matter what I do and... it's affecting my outlook, nevermind my sense of humor. I'm so negative about everything, that when I get a moment of positive thinking, it's like a brainstorm! "OMG!!! That's EXCELLENT!!! Where did that go??"

And yes, I love my horse, Rich. I love her because when I'm riding, there is nothing else BUT her and me and our relationship. There are no bills to be paid, no job searches coming up empty, no parties to plan and no people to please. She is ALWAYS happy to see me and ALWAYS makes me happier, more clear in thought. You shoot, I ride. Together, we'd make one helluva cowboy.

Which comes down to the last thing. Friends are wonderful. They are... gifts from Heaven. And I think the more I have, the better. So... thanks again to everyone who has made me laugh or smile these past few weeks, who has forced me to have a good time against my will. I love to laugh, but sometimes it's just too hard on my own. So I need you guys to help me find my smile. And... you did a great job!