I don't get boys... No surprise there, really. But usually I get them just a -little- bit... THIS kid must be from another planet. I am completely in the dark about... 90% of the time. *Shrugs* I complain about it, but actually it's okay. Frustrating, but okay. God, I'm beginning to think I've lost my chemistry. Or maybe Mike took it with him. Either way, it's gone. And that SUCKS. I think that's the preoccupying thought in my head at the moment- I am chemistry-less. Or maybe Poe took it. She took away my excitement for the world, for letting myself feel. Im going to blame it on the L-R combo provided care of both of them.

I remember being so excited about Mike that for a good two weeks, I didn't talk about ANYTHING else. Carolyn was ready to shoot me, even though she was happy that I was so excited about it. I remember bouncing around her, chattering and laughing and blushing and it's kind of sad. I just don't get that excited anymore. About... anything. Sad, huh? Or maybe this is the next stage of "maturity, " that fabled state where you plod through the world doing the same thing every day and pretending you love it so it doesn't drive you insane.

I think I lost my chemistry.

Hope not.