I couldn't think of anything to write for my med schools statement. I didn't think I had anything that stuck out. But a couple days ago, an idea started brewing in my little brain- strength. I have strength. So much willpower and strength when I really put my mind to it, that it's really what I have to offer to the world. I will lend you my strength for you to get better. I will use it to put myself through this process and help you, all of you.

And here's how I got it. Nana and Grampa, Seth, Matt, Mike, Crystal, Carolyn, Mom and Dad. Please hear me out and do not condemn me for letting the cat out of the bag. I need to do something to make this right, to... get it out.

Looking back is hard. It was never great, except for this middle years when the most of my worries were being forced onto the boat. God, I was so stupid. If I'd only known what lay ahead, I'd have enjoyed those days in the sun with the three of them and just loved every second of it. Because nothing is forever, as Queen so elegantly put it.