Okay now... Leslie is still asleep upstairs, and it's 7:07 in the morning. I've been up for about 1/2 an hour, but tried to go back to sleep so she wouldn't feel lonely when she woke up. Unfortunately, she did wake up, so we talked for about five minutes, then I came downstairs and she stayed up there to try to sleep more... I'm such an early morning waker for school, it now carries over into the weekends... *nice, sarcastic voice* Greeeaaaat.... I used to be able to sleep until 8 or so... But now I can't even do that. It's a 6:30 wake-up call fo' me! LoL

Okies... My interesting thought while doing my hair (brushing out the nasty little snarls), popping my pills (*grins*), and otherwise jsut standing inthe bathroom trying desperately to pretend I have a brain in my head: Most people change every time they change their surroundings. Their personality changes, their facial expressions change, and sometimes they even look different on the outside. The most conservative person in the world could secretly be a big-time hacker who the CIA and FBI wish they could catch, but only the Agents can... *blinks, looks about quickly* Did I say that?

Anyway... Think about it. I was this morning inthe form of the only person I could relate to: Me!!! Yay! I happento know that at school I am known as the book-worm, the semi-quiet one, and a reasonably intelligent person. Now... At home/ with friends/ anyplace but school, I am known as loud, outgoing when I'm not in a "mood", and usually, overly friendly to the point of sickening, when I'm not being a "brainless bitch" (Yes, I am still pretty steamed about that crack.). Now, to narrow down that second topic, because the first one sure as hell ain't going anywhere, that's not the point I'm trying to get across, the two groups I hang out with, I change to become a part of.

Smithfield: Oh My God... I met you guys and knew I found soemthing that had been missing. You are so much fun, all of you!! But anyway, Ichanged with you guys... I become mroe daring, more active, physically, and I'm also more loud, and more involved in what the "group" is doing.

Burrillville(Talking msotly Carly's group, jsut to make a point.): I'm quieter, but that's because we're generally quieter; I don't do much but sit around and listen to what everyone's saying, and, because I'm bored out of my mind with not doing anything, most of you think I'm a dreamer, or someone who jsut doesn't care what everyone else thinks- Aloof might be a good word. Granted, a few people know me for the loud-mouthed, cursing, clueless, blonde ditz, mostly because they've seen me with the Smithfield crowd, or because they've done stuff that got me interested enough to get involved. In which case you can see the interior of my interior. *grins*

Okay... Now that I've showed the differences, heres another point I'm trying to get across. Even though most people change when they change the group they're in, or the surroundings they're in, there is still a base personality that showw through, no matter how you try to submerge it under a lot of extraneous (Thank you, Mr. Goudreau!) bits and pieces of personality.

So, With either crowd, I always ditch everyone. No matter what. I get even the slightest inclination of beng bored, and I'm off. At Carly's parties, me and Erik are known for going around the block, taking 45 minutes so he can take a smoke and I can get out of the crowd. Tara recently got mad at me for "ditching" her and Brad at the movie theatre. I wasn't ditching you, I would've come back, but damn, girl! I do it to everyone. And anyone who knows me, knows I do this! lmao At the base of my personality, there is a gene that codes me to be introverted- I'm positive it's a gene because both of my parents are rather introverted. They don't like people, for the msot part. It is with long, grueling hours and hard, tough work, that I've managed to become even semi-friendly. Now, I tell everyone I have ADD because I don't want them to know that when I go wandering, or when I start getting all comfy in my corner, curling up into a ball so everyone thinks I'm mad, I'm usually not mad!! I'M BORED OUT OF MY MIND!!!! I need like, constant fun around me, or I find something else to do. Now, softball games are good, ebcause you can always sleep in the outfield, jsut keep an eye out for incoming softballs! hehe

Anywho... My point. yes, I did have a point. I think I lsot it around the second paragraph, but... People are hypocrites. They say they act the same with everyone, and they say that they never change with their surroundings. But... I know this is wrong. I know this is wrong because I known that I change, and I've watched other people become different with different crowds. So... I've concluded that people are hypocrites. But think... Is it not a survival skill to change with your surroundings? So... It's not necessarily a bad thing, jsut something to notice and chuckle about, especially when you see your best frined, whom you'd though was all quiet and shyt, suddenly turn into this loud, outgoing, very center-of-attentionish, person. *grins* Quite and experience, I can tell you! LoL