Whew... I'm really not quite sure what's going on my head. Like, today at lunch, I didn't even realize I was so keyed up, until Linds came over and I felt like... finally, I could sjut be myself, laugh and joke around with pears, and be dumb. And it felt really good, like taking a deep breath of fresh air after standing in a room full of smoke.

It seems like every time I go to lunch, I take a deep breath and walk in, preparing to have to hold my breath the whoel time... And I can breathe deeeply after I get out. And wow... I need to learn to chill out. I'm jsut so... untight these days, like I can't relax or somehting's going to snap. And I'm afriad I'm the one snapping. AHH!!! LoL