I think I've figured out my whole problem with drama and whatnot- it's usually about something so stupid, you can't really get upset over it, so you make drama to turn it into a bigger problem, so you can get upset over it. *nods* Maybe this is why people have drama. Because everyday life is boring, you need something to make it better, so... enlarge a problem, blow it up, and there you go! Something to look forward to at the end of the day. Some problem to overcome, to make one feel like they've actually accomplished something. *shrugs* Hey... Whatever floats your boat, dude. So long as I'm not involved, I don't care. Heh
Anyway... This morning, Lindsey left this stupid little away message up, and I got pissed. Like, not huge pissed, but enough to make me get up & call Lindsey's message machine and say something really dick on there. *snorts* I'm so immature. Then, 2 minutes later, I got up, called her again, and said what I had really wanted to say in the first place and made myself feel better, though she probably hates me for yanking the wind out of her sails. *shrugs* Eh, whatcha gonna do? Anyway... I was very proud of myself for calming down so fast (heh) and admitting i was wrong, then asking for forgiveness, and ultimately, leaving it up to her to decide whether she wants me for a friend or not.
I'm kind of afraid that she'll decide she doesn't care if we're friends or not.
Yeah Crystal and I, discussing heartfelt things in the river park last night. How we hate boys for making us twisted, how I really jsut want to say what's on my mind but feel like I can't, how everyone thinks they're alone at one point, and how silly teenagers are, in general. And who we wished, if we had to give up our lives, we could be. I think she nearly choked when I told her I wished I could be Lindsey. *nods* Yup.
*quits nodding, stops being so damned serious-defense mechanism time! OH YEAH!!!* So, oh baby, 4 CD's for 20 bucks! Sick nasty used CD's! heheh can you beleive it? They gave Chumbawamba away for 1.99! Who does that!? LoL
And, I went from 31.3 to 32.6 seconds. Fricken A. I hate running in sneakers. They're so heavy... I need to start running again, seriously. I died in the race today. Sucks like whoa.
Bothering factors:
1.) Lindsey
2.) Catfish
3.) Horsies
4.) School
5.) The fact that I misse dhte Kentucky Derby today. Fucking SHYT!