You know... I lie a lot, and I don't even mean to!! It's jsut that I don't even know what I mean, most of the time.

Like, I told Nick some shyt that definitely wasn't true, but in a way, it is. Like... I don't know, I'm the most confused person on earth, I think. I don't even know what I think, half the time. But anyway...

I really do write down most of the crap that's going through my head, but yeah, the SB is there for the shyt that's really bugging me that should never be put on here because it will hurt others really badly. And usually, when it's something that will hurt someone that much, I don't even mean it all that much, I'm jsut really really angry at that moment, and need to vent. So... I write it in my SB so no one ever sees it and is completely hurt, but I sitll get it out.

Anyway... Sunday, (OMG, it's Tuesday, and I've been at URI orientation for the alst 2 days!) Nick and I decided to call it quits, not that there was much to call quits, LoL

But anyway... Today at Orientation, we had this whole workshop where you stood up if the statements that the group leaders (My group leader was so FUCKING HOTT!!!) said were true to you in any way. Well, I stood up for most of them, and I stood up for the one that was about date rape, without even realizing who I was thinking about, jsut standing up, and felt really really dumb for doing it right after, because I hadn't realized who I knew that had been raped...

And when I actually realized, I just wanted to cry, then hug them, then cry some more for them and what they'd been through. I also wanted to apologize for having been so insensitive to it earlier and possibly smack myself for having been such an ass.

*shakes head* Then we had to sign this sheet with all the negative things that we were going to leave there, and I wrote down, "dumb blonde," "so scared to be myself," and "geek."

PS. I met a really cute guy who will talk silly about flying squirrels, and we had fun! WOOT! I can make friends!! I met a girl named Crystal- she's awesome!! heh