Ugh... I am so abusive. I feel very bad for boys who come in contact with me. Linda, for some weird reason, admires it. She says to me today,"You make them feel normal by calling them a loser." haha I guess what she meant was that I call them names, but with a huge smile and a clearly joking expressiom it jsut kinda gives people who don't normally get much attention to come out of their shells.

I constantly amaze myself, though, because around Lindsey, I clam up or jsut act like a dork, whereas with boys I barely know, I can joke around and be silly and whatnot. I think it's that Linds shows me up every time- she's sooo silly, I even try to do it, she's not only already done it, but topped it with something even funnier. I gave up a long time ago trying to hang with guys when she's around. LoL She's jsut got it alllll over me. haha I love you Linds, no worries!!!

I can't wait to go back to school. I came home today, after being up at 6:30, at work from 9-4, to be back at 5:30, to... chaos. My brother shoves his gf in my backseat- MY CAR'S NOT EVEN SHUT OFF YET!!!- tells me to shut the fuck up and drive her home, and throws himself in the front seat. So waht do I do? I reach in, grab my coffee mug full of water and hurl it at him as hard as I can, then walk away. *shakes head* I should ahve known better.

All the way to the party this afternoon, mom and Seth screamed at each other, so I was left dripping in the passenger seat. If I'd had a hood, I would've hidden in it, because I jsut didn't want to be there. Drowning Pool would have been helpful at that point.... *le sigh* I can't wait to go back to shcool. I can feel my sanity draining out again with every word they speak.