Hmm... I haver performance anxiety. No, I'm not talking sex. LoL I am talking about this damned party my house is supposed to be throwing... Argh. I can't believe I broght it up on a weekend that I'm not there the whole week before. Not only that, but I just... I just want to sit around with people I know and like, drink until I can't see straight, then go to sleep.

We're going to leave some things out of that night of glory, due to a PG-13 rating, but whatever... LoL

there are just some things going down that I'm not comfortable with, and I don't know how to deal with them, except to remove myself from the situation. I can have fun at other places than parties, so I think I'm going to hang there for a bit, then head over to laura's with my bottle of Bacardi and a thing of cranberry juice, and... have fun with her and Laura M and her sister! haha Girl's Night In! loL Or maybe, jsut maybe, I won't drink at all, and have a rolicking old time jsut chilling and teling stories and being goofy as we girls often are.

Speaking of goofy... haha OMG. Linds, sarah and I were have a grand time prank-calling people. Dude... I have never done that in my life, and so watching Linds talk to Josh and John was hysterical. I nearly killed her when she started getting scary, but omg... she's sooo funny.

gotta go... I've got the cutest love in the world fixing me with her big brown-black eyes, slowly creeping into my lap... hah Miss Panda, you are so darned cute.