I'm not sure what's going on, but I'm definitely feeling a vibe. Whether I'm being delusional or not, one will never know. LoL Guess we'll jsut have to see.

I told Josh the other day that the reason I'm so happy isn't because of Rich, but Poe. And... it's true. I was MISERABLE all those years because there was something absolutely vital missing in my life. And since last September, especially since this summer, I've got this inner sense of peace because... I love horses, my horse, riding, being at the barn, hanging with people who understand me, strong and capable women not afraid to get their hands dirty, having a goal, having the chance to achieve my goals.

And... Poe's Night Mare is now... Poe-etic. haha We'll see how she is, then decide. hahah

I had a GREAT time with Josh and Linda this weekend. There was some of the old tension after we'd both had a few drinks but we rose above it beautifully. So, my reason for nervousness wasn't unfounded, but definitely ended up okay. Funny enough, but it wasn't even that he had a gf that stopped me cold in my tracks, it was that I know where I want this to go and refused to start with black marks. God knows I'll have enough chances to scuff if it happens. Tom was right... It's all about intent.