Yeah... Saw Erik today, and he avoided me the whole time we went out with friends. *grin* I guess I have that effect on guys. Anyway, I came to a conclusion, after a lot of thinking on my own, asking Brennan a few things, and having Meagan provide some insgiht, which led to even deeper thoughts.

It's gonna take courage, a bit of just sheer determination, and a bit of just fucked up old Abby-ness. But mostly courage. Because for me to do this, I'll need my own brand of courage, and no one can give that to me, but myself.

I'm going to write a letter, to explain a few things about stuff, and just... be myself. Utterly sappy, corny and stupid, but what's been on my mind, and what I determiend tonight. Then, I'm going to use that letter to explain in words what I need to say, and hope that it comes out right. So, yeah... Tacos tomorrow night!! YEAH!!!!

Ya know... Tonight was like that night a long time ago when I dreamed all night, and woke up knowing exactly what I had to do. At first i thought up these real weird, stupid ideas, but I think I know what I actually need to do, and... well, I'm jsut gonna go do it now. Night.