I love Juice (and straws...) ! In fact, I'm making an "I love Acorns (*evil laugh*)" fan club. Anyone wanna join?*grin*


WEll, today was much better than yesterday, which was just... horrible. I was bored, and really, really, just not having a good day.

But, today I hung out with two old freinds (Mike and Carly) and two newer frineds(Ala and SB). so, I guess that I do have friends, and that maybe, just maybe, I can quit being such a damned worrywart. I had a really good time, one of the times that I will remember when I wonder why I'm friends with certain people, and it will help me make up my mind to jsut... wait it out, it will be okay in the end.

The Mosherishness of it all! Dammit!! Why did you have to scare me so badly today!?!? As I explained earlier, before Da killed my post, I think I know why. she scares everyone, because she wants to weed out those who really want to try and who really want to be there, from those who are jsut going to half-ass it and barely make the grade. God, I don't know why I'm thinking in such a way, but Geez... Joe, you better not drop out. After Mosher, you are the only one who can usually explain to me and help me understand what the hell I'm doing. *whistles* It's gonna be rough this year... Or maybe, maybe I'm jut thinking that way, because I'm jsut remembering all the bad times from last year. I mena, it couldn't ahve been -that- bad... I always got decent grades after first quarter, and I even got an A- 4th quarter- High Honors, for the first time in High School. And it jsut figures, I don't even get a diploma or ceremony for it! dammit! LoL

As for college, I'm just... figuring out what I need to do, what I want to do, and how to achieve what I want to do, the best way possible. I want to be a horse vet. I want to be a physical therapist. You know, I know I want to do something with sports medicine, whether it be for humans or animals, but I'm possitive that I want to deal with sports medicine. Mouser and Dan and Hell, even Craig (asshole...), thank you. Now, all i need to do is figure out how to go about it. I'm pretty sure I'll be fine, I just need to chill and think before acting.

What else? Oh right... Missa, don't be mad at me for what I said. The morning looked better than the night, and well... I'm choosing to be brighter, as well. So, no worries, girl. I'm sure we'll work out the kinks, or I'll just drift away, like I always do. *shrugs, kind of sadly* No need to fight it, it's a cycle which doesn't seem to be able to be broken. But, *wry half-smile* I suppose it will work out in the end.

In case you ever read this, panthera_calanthe Matt, you come up in my head sometimes, and I miss you terribly. I still look for you sometimes, even though I know you've probably gained a life and no longer need to be looked for. I guess we all change and we all move on. But, if you ever read this, please know that I am sorry for the last things I wrote to you. I hope, after all this time, that you can take my apology to heart, not as someone who, knowing they did a person wrong, will apologize, but as a friend, who struck out in anger and never should have, apologizes. I hurt you, time after time, and though I apologized straight after, it's jsut not the same. *grin* In case you ever want to talk, I will always have questions, and I will always be a pest. *grin* But maybe not to the extent I once was (people change, you know!). (closing) Rain forever, (Here's where I sign) The Girl Who Loves Handstands.