Hmm... I think that I'm scared, deep-to-the-core terrified of what's not been done yet, what I don't even know has to be done, and what is coming, concerning college. I've always been afraid of the unknown, but this is an unknown that I don't really have a safety net for, or any type of way to... go back. Granted, on most things you can't go back, but I really don't know if this is even what I want to be doing. In my head, it makes perfect sense, but in my heart, I wonder if maybe I should have opted for the military, grown up a bit more before I headed to college. (Wow... Deja vu about that particular sentence.)

I'm really afraid that when I come back, I won't see or talk to any of the awesome people that I am really going to miss, or that I'm going to change that I don't know any of them anymore.

Like, the people that you have good times with and though you're definitely not the best of friends, who will keep in touch, you certainly don't want to lose them. I think I'm hiding it really well, but when I get really tired and just don't have enough energy to control what I'm thinking, to shove it in the background, it flows out. *shrugs* Ehh... I think everyone's feeling the same way, it's jsut something that's been bothering me for a while.

Heh... I threw my name into the pot for a Sorority... *shrugs* What the hell? Why not? LoL I also signed myself up for info on the karate club, so... shoot! It could be fun!

Tomorrow, I'm heading to meet my roommate for lunch. I hope she's nice, and I really hope I'm not going alone!!! AHHH!!! She sounded nice on the phone, and I was a total prat. (New word... kinda funny!) We were both fake laughing, which made me kinda of nervous, but... I think that we'll probably get along well enough. My hair smells like oranges... New conditioner... Yum! I went in the bathroom and was truly stunned hwen it smelled so good, thenremembered that itwas my new conditioner and my hair smelled like it too! WOOT! I was so excited!

Last night, on hte way home from the charter, dad fell asleep while I was driving in a HUGE traffic jam. It was kind of fun, though. I jsut turned up the music and rolled down hte windows and people on either side of the car would go by and talk to me like we were neighbors or something.

The charter? It was sooo much FUN!!! After one day, it felt more like a couple charters had gone by, rather than jsut one. And oooh la la. Three of them were primo! heh But truly, I had so much fun, and I knew what I was doing most of the day, that I was quite pleased with myself! LoL