I went off on Cat last night. I swear to God, I'm getting worse and worse about stress. After what Jeremy said and I had to admit to, I'm so... wary. Because, really, it's true. When you go out with a guy, or you like him, you overlook shyt that after the glow has worn off, you find annoying, or even pisses you off to no end. And honestly, I was real honest and observant after I realize what a dick Joe was, so... I saw what I was getting into, and probably, against my better judgement, I still decided to jump in with both feet. And Jeremy, that was dick, making me confront what I knew to be true, and yet still aggravating me to the point where I couldn't stop thinking about it.

So, I said some rather nasty crap about Jen, and I feel like such a complete and total bitch, which I knew I would becuase I don't talk smack becuase I have an overactive conscience. Even if I'm thinking something, I don't say it aloud- becuase it will come back and bite you in the ass, but also becuase I disagree with the whole business. Anyway, what I said. I just told him that Crystal said she was yanking him back not necessarily becuase she liked him, but because he needed a jerk to keep him in check- if she couldn't have him, no one would. I have no idea whether it's true or not, but... I wouldn't be surprised if it was.

And now that he reads this, I have one other personality to edit stuff for. Woot. It's so much easier when no one reads this, or I don't know if anyone reads this and I don't have to worry about sensitive souls. eh, most of the time, I don't care. But hurtful stuff? Raging stuff? That needs to be edited- heat of the moment stuff doesn't really count.

Anyway... I'm thinking of taking up a separate job, involving Stan, one of the hroses at the barn. His owner is an absolute sadist, and a stupid bitch to boot. And if you think I'm kidding, you've got to meet this lady- Fucking Bitch. (hah... and I don't talk smack, right?) Anyway... Her horse's feet are shot, because she didn't take care of them, and becuase of the added strain of his hooves hurting him, he pulled his suspensory tendon, which puts him out of commission for riding, for a month. So, she's hiring someone to walk him for 20 minutes a day, because that's all he can do. And I think I'm going to take the job becuase this horse is awesome and I love him to pieces- but then again, I'm really really afraid I'm going to be crushed when she ruins him again... And I don't need that shyt before college. Help?