I feel so much better today and yesterday than I have in a long time. I think t shows. Yesterday, I could feel myself, and I know this is going to sound weird, but I swear I could feel myself waking up, almost. Like I'd been sleeping, like I do every winter, and now that it's sunny out and the days are warm, I am waking up. Slowly but surely.

I hope I'm not going to have to knock on wood when I say that... LoL

Last night was fun, I was really studying and having fun at the same time. Unfortunately, now it really is study time, exam tomorrow!! AHH!! But, it'll be okay. I can drop the lowest grade and I've got 2 90's already... LoL Maybe I can make it a 100... But I'm not going to kill myself about studying for this one. LoL I'll prolly do chem or sit in the sun and burn again, instead. LoL

I love when people surprise us, for the better. It just makes you want to jump up and down, give them a huge hug and grin. It really really makes me want dance around and be like, "Oh man!!! I -know- why I love you so much!!!" Just a total and breathtaking shock. I love it. I don't even care. And I'm not talking gifts, though I guess in a way, I am. I'm talking... when someone is usually really down or glum and you think that their smile will be the same, and then they smile and it's like the sun has just risen. Or when you talk baby-talk to someone who just seems like they would smack you down for it, then they talk back the same way. -That- is the best kind of surprise, and it makes me love them for it all the more. It's like an inside joke, and it makes you feel so special, even if they do it with everyone else. Just for that moment, it's your joke, and you can cradle it for yourself.

I was trying to explain why Scott's smile was so important to me, to my mom, and I finally had to settle for, "It's like the sun rising... A brand new day." And I think she got it, but that wasn't even the whole of it. It's like... better than receiving a package in the mail. It's just... discovering this wholew new side of someone, whether you've known them for a while, not at all, or just a little bit. Just... awesome.

My roomie surprises me sometimes. She'll come out with this quick-witted quip about something, and I'll look at her, eyes wide, before bursting out laughing, and she'll be looking at me with, "It wasn't -that- funny!!" written all over her face. I could never explain why sometimes I jsut get... hysterical over the smallest things, and it's becuase they're a -Huge- surprise to me, which makes it that much funnier.

Anyway... I've decided that granola and almost anything is a new favorite. Beth got me hooked on it and cottage cheese- a delightfl mixture of crunchy, squishy, sweet and bland all mixed into one yummy bite! But last night... I bought yogurt, and I had some in the strawberry one this morning, and it was really good!! I'd heard yogurt and granola was really awesome, but whe nI opened it up this morning, I was filled iwth doubt. Hmm... could this really be anything worth eating? I tried a bite with jsut each on a side of the spoon, and it was really good! So... I loaded the yogurt with granola and proceeded to chow down! heh

I'm really just sitting here, writing down whatever comes to mind because... it feels good. I haven't been able to do it in a while. I know... long-winded and whatnot. *sigh* It's just nice to sit here and think, I suppose.

I suppose anything can be dealt with if you're in a good mood. You jsut hav eto angle stuff so that you can deal with it as if you're already in a good mood.

Also... I'm slightly worired about a member of my... Well, yeah. Just someone. *nervous twitch* I htink I'll jsut write more on this in my SB. And let someone who knows me better, think about it. LoL

Now, what about this weather, people? It jumped form 40 something to 80 in what... 3 days? I'm just not sure about this New England weather. I hear Amherst has something like 87 degrees today... Geez... That's crazy.

*giggles and sings along to Bowl of Oranges by Bright Eyes*

I'm going outside!! CYA!!!