Okay... there's a couple things I have to. Number one, design our card. heh I'm so excited. I haven;t made a card in a long time. heh Two, well.. I guess I only hav eone thing I really have to do. LoL Yay!

I'm pondering over something... I know. I ponder stuff for so long, I never seem to let it go. Everything. Which is why, when I have to clear something up, I do it quickly. Maybe not the best of things, especially when said things involved angered people, but otherwise I agonize over it until it gets cleared up. And even then, I stand a good chance of kicking myself over it. "Blame it upon a rush of blood to the head.." Coldplay.

Anyway... The only one who seems to bug me? No, of course not. I think you are mistaken, dearie. Other people bug me, but honestly, for the most part, they bug me about things I can't change, or didn't do. And for both of those, it is simply not worht agonizing over. So I don't. for the most part.

But... When I cause a problem in a relationship, I agonize. Big time. And I caused a rather large problem, I guess... I'm still unsure how large it is, exactly. Or, for that matter, how I went about it (ie. the cause about which they frieked out, and then I got stupid). Actually.. .It's really not bothering me half as much as it probably would have 6 months ago. I swear, having such shitty people in my life has taught me how to let things go, let people go. *sad little half-smile* It kinda sucks that I find it almost -easy- to let people go fuck themselves over. I used to care. A lot. And I still do, if they've proven themselves willing to care in return. If not, I'm just... unwilling to put myself through all the heartache that caring entails.

Anyway.. Here's how I'm going to rationalize this to myself, so I can just.. .shut up about it:
1.) It was in text. 'Nuff said right there. Perceptions are so fucked up when you don't have a face, or even a voice. I hate text. HUGE pet peeve.
2.) I was digging, yes, but they were volunteering answers. So... what would any naturally curious person do? that's right.. .Keep asking the questions! Any journalist would have done the same... right? *pointed look*
3.) I honestly did care. This seems to be a sticking point. *snort*
"Are you alright?" "You don't trust me, why should I answer you?" "AHHH!!!"
"Are you okay?" "Stop asking me questions!" "AHHH!!!"
"Is everything okay?" "No. Leave me alone." "AHHH!!!"
- Note: This is from both of us. *chuckle* Truly, kind of funny in a demented sort of way.
4.) I'm so getting my ass kicked for writing this. *nervous giggle*
5.) They frieked, I got stupid, then defensive. Never a good combination. *shakes head* Oops?
6.) I think maybe I'll jsut let it blow over...

Yeah... Oy... Vey. PS. Note to self: Brown eyes are veeery sexy. Me-OW!! *wink, nudge, poke* Especially when they aren't afraid to hold a steady gaze.

I love confrontation, I think.