I went out with Carly last night, to see Luis, Felix, and "some cousins"- Fabio and a new one I'd never met before, Jimmy. It was, quite plainly, horrible. Absolutely outrageously fucking horrible.

Don't get me wrong. It started out badly, got better, then went straight off the cliff. I talked to Carly in the morning and we thought we might do something later, when she got out of work. So, after my brother pulled a wonderful stunt and set my mom screaming, fuming, and overall making me just curl up and sleep in my room, I awoke to hear her crying and yelling at my dad, and left. I called up Carly, asked her if we were doing anything, and when she said it was raining, "-Please?-" "Have you eaten yet? We're having spaghetti." "Sounds awesome... are you sure? Okay. I'll be over in 5." On the way, I saved a turtle, brushed my hair and put in contacts- in reverse order, LoL

So, I got there a bit later than 5 minutes, but whatever. We ate dinner, laughing quietly the whole way through at simple little things - These people used to be my second family, and I haven't seen them in such an everyday setting in so long... 5th grade, really...

Anyway... then we decided we were going out, to go see Luis, and Felix who had jsut come back from the DR for his summer class. Called them up and got an okay, so Carly straightened my hair and put on some eyeshadow, then we were off! I had on this black tanktop, and she put on a black tubetop- really cute!! I wish I could wear stuff like that... Anyway, we were playing at blonde bombshell- hahah Riiiiight... She's so pretty, I really have a ahrd time keeping up with her on a -bad- day, nevermind a good day, haha

Anyway, we got lost in Providencia several times- mainly because Luis gives really shitty directions- Go left... Oops... I meant RIGHT!!! GO RIGHT!!! AHHH!! Make up your mind, idiot!!! LoL We got there, none the worse for wear, and they came out to sit on the porch with us- Luis turned on the light and was like... "Whoa! I've never seen you like this, Abby!! It's... nice." I laughed, because you know when people get sued to seeing you in jeans and a sweatshirt, then you suddenly change it to a tanktop and do some simple changes, it looks like a drastic makeover! See?? My madness has a reason... LoL

Felix came out and fell off the step- it was hilarious. hehe He looked at Carly, and looked her up and down- "You look good, Carolyn, as always!" then to me, and Luis chose this moment to turn on the light-"Look at Abby, though!!"- and I thought he was going to fall again. Seriously now boys... It -really- wasn't that big of a deal!! (BTW... I still had my hoodie on, lmao)

Anyway... I was kind of wary now, because if two guys who knew me had this reaction, shit shit what about fabio? Now, Fabio is... direct to the point of utter rudeness. I will never in my life understand why I constantly go away from people feeling like I want to kill them then a month later, decide that, You know, he couldn't've been -that; I must be making some of it up. Yeah... NO!!!

Let me jsut put it this way. I got propositioned for 4 hours straight- progressivly getting worse and worse- LUIS LEFT ME, taking Carly with him, in the basement with this asshole and Jimmy- a slightly better asshole who, if Fabio hadn't been around, probably would ahve been cool- and Felix, who was absolutely NO HELP!!! I got pulled into his lap, constantly touched and at one point groped, until he finally released my arm long enough to allow me to stand up, pin him with the nastiest look I could muster- one of my patent, "Get the fuck away from me or I'll stop being so nice..." looks- Evidently, looks were not enough. I'm traumatized. So, I fled the basement and found Luis, and made it, in what I thought was a very clear manner, that if he ever left me alone, or didn't help me out again, I would be forced to officially spaz on his cousins. Carolyn came over, heard the highlights of the basement interim (I have no idea whether that's the word I want or not.) and tried to comfort me, but by now I was feeling thoroughly betrayed by both of them, so all I wanted was to leave. But, guess what!!! PIZZA!!!!

Yippy fucking skippy.

One more hour of constant propositioning, until Fabio was undoing his fly and both Carolyn and I were basically clinging to Luis, who finally told him to put it away. Then more propositioning directed toward me, and I'm kickng Carolyn the whole time about LET'S GO!!! and she's not getting it... We were btoh waiting for the other to get up to leave.

Let me just say- Utter horror. Anyone who knows me, you know how fucking defensive I get when put in social situations so much less that that. I'm a fucking GOOD GIRL!!! I don't ahve to deal with this SHIT! I was not raised in the ghetto- I have no smart comebacks, and the only way I know to defend myself is to do it in a way that you aren't being rude, don't upset people, and still get away. Yeah... I gotta work on that. When I'm upset, they should be upset, too. *le sigh* Anyway... It was just a horrible night. I look back, and it's funny in that "This is so horrifying, it's like something out of a bad movie" humor.

God, some guys are such animals. You jsut want to kick them and be like, "Did your mom ever teach you about manners?" Or jsut kick them and run because they're huge and scary and -really- strong. Fucking A, I'm so ready to forget that. But it ahd to come in here, because I need to remember for the next time I forget what an asshole Fabio is. I'm dumb, we know this, so I write to remember.