It's now 2 am, and I am still evidently going strong on the two shots of espresso that Linds and Kyle infused me with 4 hours ago- is that possible? I'm jsut not sure. Caffeine has very crazy effects on my system. I imbibe it so little that when I do, it's like a bomb exploding- I go fucking NUTS!!! I was tweaking out in the car, unable to stop myself from like, bouncing around. I tried to sit still, jsut to see if I could, and my hands were shaking so horribly badly, I think they were trying to commit suicide. No more espresso. No more caffeine for a long time. haha

I set up a MySpace- SELLOUT, I know!!! But not really. I only put a post on there to link it to here... No worries, my baby. I would never abandon you. especially not to some POS crappy little interface that doesn't even allow me to use my newly acquired knowledge of CSS... Geeaz... As someone famous once said, "Well, fuck that!" haha ("Fucking kangaroos!")

I really do need to start reading once again. College ruined me on reading. I used to do it all the time- actually, let met ake that back. Having a life ruined my for reading. Since I got friends and a life a couple years back, books have never really held such a large sway... combined with numerous other factors, many of which I gripe about constantly in here!! Oy... such a whiner!!

Lynch is now trying to set me up with some kid who has no idea what he's in for. I'm guessing she figures I'm hopeless- very true, but at the same time I kind of want to protest jsut because I am me, and protesting would be utterly in character. bah... I'm lazy. Besides, he is kinda cute, and he's very... intriguing. *narrows eyes* Hmm...

Anyway, the puppies are doing fine- they had their tails chopped off today, but they didn't cry too much, Sprite was good, as far as I know, and I now remember why I never really played with the puppies too much in the past litters- I'm so FUCKING ALLERGIC!!! Just driving them to the vet, I had to pull over a couple times because the sneezing fits were so spectacular, I couldn't see the Road! haha Such a crazy morning, I swear!

Um... So, yeah, that's about it. I don't hate Crystal. As much as I say I do, it's more that I'm jsut really, extremely frustrated at my own inability to make her comprehend (or maybe jsut care? Ouch, that thought instantly gets pushed back because it hurts a lot.) how much I miss her company. We were going to save tortured souls from overbearing tyrants, remember girly? Do you even remember? I miss ya, hun. I'm glad I saw you tonight- it was fun! I'm really glad you're going to head to college, you're too smart to sit around for long. You'd get bored, hehe.

Um... wow, I wrote a shitload about absolutely nothing. More: I kind of wish I could just... go. Pack my car and drive someplace. May6be i will, dammit. I am takingn this weekend off and going someplace. maybe Albany- spend some time with my crazy relatives up there, and just visit? Oh, who knows? Maybe I'll just go buy and pitch a tent, bring my fishing pole and some matches, starve myself(Because we all know I can't catch freshwater fish to save my life!) for a couple days in the cause of "roughing it". take some time to myself and no one else- be completely selfish and just figure out what's going on. I think that would take more than 2 days, but maybe I cuold figure out enough to get me by until the next time. Mebbe.