Just so no one thinks I'm being insane. This is not about Memere.

I am disgusted. Completely and totally.

My reflection just completely tweaked. And yet, I can't safely say that if I had been doing the same thing, I wouldn't have -done- the same thing. Eh... tough call.

I'm really sad... I feel like I lost my best friend, which, in a sense, I did. And now... Now I am really tired and want to go to bed, but I'll miss what I'm trying to say if I do. I feel like I can see my own downward spiral. It really scares me. Now, neither Matt or Naomi will play, and I'm forced to sit on the sidelines.

I wish I could apologize, but there's nothing to apologize for, because there is no choice between actions. And if there is, I try for the high ground, when in fact, most of the time, I feel like the low ground. does anyone know what I'm talking about? No? Good. I'm going to sleep.

Moving furniture tomorrow... Thank you Matt for the offer, but no thank you. I'm afraid of what might happen.