I didn't realize it until a few hours after I got here yesterday. I am miserable. Not just unhappy, but frieking MISERABLE! I'm laughing because right now, right at this moment, I am good. I am fine, just chilling in my house, hanging with my family and just.. being free to be however I want to be, without worrying about putting on a show, and when I will be unable to put it on any longer.